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| Ingmar Bergman, film director |
In Flagrante Delicto |
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Anna Lindberg and I were contemporaries. We were in what was called the ninth grade. Anna and I began to do our homework together . . . Anna's mother was seldom home in the evenings and . . . our homework activities developed immediately into confused but obstinate exercises on the violently creaking bed.
We were lonely, starved, inquisitive and utterly ignorant. Anna's virginity offered resistance and the hammock-like bed made the operation more difficult. We never dared take our clothes off, but practised fully dressed, minus Anna's woollen knickers. We were at once careless and cautious, and I usually ejaculated somewhere between her hard suspender belt and soft stomach. Anna was brave and clever and suggested we should lie on the floor in front of the tiled stove, something she had seen in a film. We set fire to a few sticks and newspapers in the stove and tore off our restraining clothes. Anna squealed and laughed, I sank deeply inward in a secretive way, Anna shrieked, it hurt but she held on to me. I dutifully tried to free myself, she wrapped her legs round by back, I sank even deeper, Anna cried, tears and snot running all over her face. We kissed with lips pressed together: 'Now I'm pregnant,' she whispered. 'I felt I got pregnant.' She was laughing and crying. I was seized with icy terror and tried to bring her back to her senses, she must wash herself and the mat at once. We both had blood on us and some had gotten on the mat.
At that moment, the hall door opened and Anna's mother appeared. Anna was sitting on the floor trying to get her knickers on and push her big breasts inside her vest. I pulled at my jersey to hide some dark spots round my fly.
Mrs. Lindberg slapped my face, took me by the ear and dragged me twice around the room, then stopped, boxed my ears again and said with a menacing smile that I should damned well stop making her daughter pregnant. (Stockholm, 1932)
from The Magic Lantern: An Autobiography by Ingmar Bergman (Hamish Hamilton, © 1988)
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