PERSONAL ESSAYS

Reader Feedback on "Recovering from Big Brother"

Am more intigued by the book you were working on than by "Big Brother" although I don't know if this message will reach you directly...assuming it WILL, do you have a website where I can email you to ask you questions on the book? Since WXPT ("The Point" 104) changed radio formats I haven't heard a peep out of you...am writing this on 4-30-02, and you can reach me at jackjod@msn.com. Look VERY forward to hearing from you! Best wishes-
--JAJ
04/30

Hi. I have to say that I thought you were the only real, interesting person on Big Brother. When you were voted out I was so disgusted and I didnt' want to see anymore. Everyone else on the show was so phoney and lame. I admired you and was rooting for you and thought you were voted out because women viewers were jealous of you, as were the women in the house, i hate to say. I was reading sites about strippers tonight because of financial worries of my own, and remembered you from the show and decided to see what had happened to you , because I remembered you were going to write about your experiences and feeling on it all. Sorry for this long mail. Hope you are happy and doing well. - Stacey
--S B
04/09

"...Baby can't be blessed til she finds out that She's like all the rest..."
--DM
07/17

Jordan I'm a female much older than you,I think you are a very wise young woman!! You continue to live like you are NEVER turn down a new adventure . You are a beautiful and I think you seized the moment by dancing whether it was nude topless or what ever. You won't have that window of oppurtunity at age 40 .Don't worry about other people you know you are a bright young lady and pretty tough also to have completed the Ironman. Keep on living you will have a happy life. The show was boring without you !! Terri Siers
--TS
04/24

I think you were brave in all that you did. You are an inspiration. You are an intelligent, empowered, beautiful person, and that intimidates most people. May God bless you always.
--ss
02/20

WOW!! i would never have thought that the "jordan" would have felt like that! all i have to say is~MORE POWER TO YOU. JORDAN IS IN MY MIND THE TRUE WINNER. we have learned more about her than we should have but she is just another human being. she is/can be scared, lonely, and depressed but i will never look down on her for being honest and true.
--jem
02/17

Jordan - I liked you at first. However, it did seem due to you insecurity that you showed the mean spirited side that you know we all have in us. When it was time for you to go I was as relieved as when Mega left. If you had stayed I had already convinced myself that I was going to quit watching. You reminded me too uch of myself about 10 years ago. I have changed from that person and now am a much wiser and more self confident person. I can only wish the same for you. Find a stabilizing influence and grow with it. Let the melodrama go. You seem to take everything so seriously like you were a raw exposed nerve.
--RM
10/25

Jordan, You were you.. You allowed you real feelings to be seen and yes we the public know that Big Brother edited things the way THEY wanted you to come accross..I never saw that as a BAD thing.. I saw you as someone needing the stimulation of good conversation and tried to get it BUT you were held back. I Do believe that had Brit been voted out be fore you it would of been very differant. I think someof the house guest were there for FUN and a good time and yet some where there to improve but were held back by one person and that was not you! I felt bad the night you left as I wanted tyou to be one of the last in the house.. Keep your head UP!!!!! You are a fine woman in every since of the word...
--LH
10/22

A PITY Whore---Indeed!
--H.S.
10/19

This article written by "Big Brother's" Jordan was very well written and concise, albeit a bit on the self-indugent side. Having watched "Big Brother" in it's entirety and dis-cussing the actions of the "Big Brother" houseguests with many at work and in the Big Brother chat rooms, I must agree with Jordan's assessment on certain unfair aspects of her "Big Brother" experience. Jordan is a very intelligent and well thought out individual. However, I had the privilege of watching the aol "LIVE FEEDS" of the Big Brother house activities, and thus was exposed to Jordan's handling of being "Nominated" and the events that followed. Though Jordan seemed "hurt" by the GAME SHOW process of voting out a houseguest.....her reactions to such seemed a bit unwarranted. Jordan teamed up with Mega in multiple vicious sessions of name-calling and character assassination attacks on the other members of the Big Brother household. She attributes these to a natural reaction to the "cold-shoulder" offered up by the other houseguests. Though the "Cold-Shoulder" offered up by other houseguests clearly appeared AFTER her games of character assassination with Mega ....and the dramatics offered up by Jordan on the day of nominations. This made for very interesting viewing and would have kept the Big Brother ratings well in the top ten for weeks to come. Jordan and Mega's refusal to eat a salad soon after nominations lead to suspicions that Mega and Jordan had spit in or contaminated the salad in some fashion. Most likely it was a ploy to increase the paranoia and tension of the other houseguests. And Jordan wonders why they gave her the cold shoulder? All in all, I feel Jordan did suffer a slight injustice at the hands of the producers and houseguests of "Big Brother." But, no more an injustice than that Jordan herself offered the houseguests she demeaned behind their backs. Jordan's behavior is justified in some cases....and VERY PETTY in others. In conclusion, Jordan should indeed grow that exoskeleton and leave her "Big Brother" experience to both bittersweet and self-revealing memory. I wish Jordan all the best in her life....now that her 15 minutes are drawing to their close. And I hope that Jordan will remember that simple piece of advice, one taught at childhood. "DO UNTO OTHERS... AS YOU WOULD HAVE THEM DO UNTO YOU." And another piece of advice to Jordan, would serve well. "BE A GOOD SPORT!" It was just a silly game show girl! Get over it....and LIVE LIFE! Sincerely: DrInstigator@aol.com
--D.S.
10/19

Hey Jean, I really enjoyed your article! You are a very good writer. I see no need for you to worry over how you were protrayed on the show.. many people thought you were great. Put your past behind you! You are a very beautiful and smart lady! Just want to say you were my favoite in the Big Brother house from the beginning! I think you were not befriended by Brit because you were a real threat to her.You are beautiful and mature, Brit is silly and childish! Eddie was also threatened by you. I also believe he was very attracted to you and could not handle the temptation! If Brit is the guy's favorite in the house, it is simply because she whined and played up to all of them. You were just too much for those guys to handle! I thought you were great on the show. You really tried to get those "kids" to open up and talk about something intelligent.I have read many articles saying the directors and producers said that the most popular with the public and most intertaining were voted off first!!! Thats you! God bless!
--SW
10/17

Jordan, Curtis has said recently that after watching the tapes, he felt you were portrayed badly, and that your "good" side was edited out. I have to agree. I enjoyed reading your insightful article, and I am glad to have had the chance to hear your side of things. Good Luck with your writing and your future. Don't listen to the crap on these messages, as it is written by people who are cowards, hiding behind the anonymity of the cyber world. Surround youself with those who have your best interests at heart and respect you. Peace-
--GR
10/17

Great article Jordan. I really enjoyed it. You are a very good writer and I think your book should do very well. It is writing style that determines the ultimate success of a book rather than content. Best of Luck in your future endeavours.
--AS
10/17

Jordan, I think you are horribly selfish. I knew what a bitch you were when you said in the red room how you were going after Josh just because Brit liked him. Josh didn't have a chance against a whore like you. Talk about playing with people's feelings...what about your boyfriend? You made things pretty miserable for Brit and Josh. You were just a nasty, petty person on Big Brother. I don't know if that is really you and maybe they did edit you as negative but you did that stuff so deal with it and that is why you were voted off.
--DB
10/17

I think this was a great written, honest article. She should stop worrying about what people think...the girl is alright! She made the best of BB, and was lucky to get out when she did!!!
--JL
10/16

Seems to me she is all about sex.(And not very in touch with her sexuality) Haven't heard her talk at all about anything else. If she can, it's yet to be seen.
--D.D.
10/16

I don't think people on here are being self righteous. They are just speaking their mind. Jordan likes people that are outspoken like that. She is "drawn" to them.
--ML
10/15

Although I would be the first to agree that Jordan has obviously suffered some mental anguish during her time dancing and needs to address that as her problem, not her Big Brother experience, I find these little remarks left by the readers bland and sad. I wonder how many of these self-righteous people feel better yelling at someone else for being "whiny" and "bitchy" merely because they cannot stand to take the time to look at themselves more closely.
--Nik
10/15

i did not find this "hard to read" or rambling.....i enjoyed it and feel differently about jorden sp now....thanks for update (a positive feeling)
--es
10/14

"Poor" Jordan - she apparently thinks of herself as some sort of intellectual with humor that no one else understood. She didn't appear all that bright to me, just self-centered and posturing. There are two types of women: a "woman's woman" who seek out and can be close to other women in a non-threatening way, or a "man's woman" - one of those who, in a group of people, will always be drawn to men. Jordan was obviously the latter; most of her time seems to be spent focusing on her body. Maybe she should try to do something for others - it's a big world out there with lots of oportunities to volunteer with people less fortunate (and less superficial). Maybe then she wouldn't feel the need to whine and feel sorry for herself.
--gg
10/13

You stand for NOTHING when it comes to women! You say you want to be a voice for women. Please stay out of it! All you ever say is "I think.....Blah Blah!". You never have any facts to back you up. Just rambling off the top of your head without looking at the whole picture--Me Me Me! You have a LONG way to go to speak for US. Leave it to those who KNOW what they are talking about. Your voice is selfish not contributing!
--MT
10/13

Hi Jordan, I do not think people think of you as an ex-stripper. I don't think people give a shit about that. I know I don't. Just think of all the people that like you and love you in your life. And there are a lot more out there that feel the same way that don't even know you. People aren't generally bad judges of character, they just sometimes need to understand more about someone. And you did that with your essay. I am glad I read it. I feel as if I understand you better now. I wasn't a fan of yours at first, because when you asked, almost demanded, that the other HG's tell you why they nominated you. But now, especially after I read your essay, I feel that if you had stayed in the house I could have very easily become a huge fan. (I wasn't a big fan of Eddie's at first either, but after I got to know him better, I became one of his biggest) "Hang in there baby" Jack
--Jack
10/12

It was nice to read an article about Jordan. All I ever heard was negative feedback on her. I personally enjoyed watching her on the show and was sadened when she left the show. She made it interesting. It seemed to me that the most controversal and interesting people were voted off first! I will always wonder what could have happened if Jordan and Mega had lasted to the end or atleast a couple weeks longer. Who knows maybe ratings would have went up! Guess we'll never know. Jordan- If you read this. Keep your head up girl! Your awesome. I can't wait for your book to come out. You seem so outspoken on your feelings unlike a few of your former houseguests. Best Wishes and God Bless MaryBeth pepper@ldd.net
--MS
10/12

Her ideas are valid and well thought out, but her style could use some help--sentences were too long, etc. The style problems made it hard to follow some passages. Peronally, I found it boring to read someone go on and on about their emotions. I felt like I was her therapist reading this essay. She should have balanced it out with her plans for the future and what she's doing now. If she expects to ever publish a book, I would suggest a few more writing courses and more objectivity. This essay is annoyingly me me me
--JAL
10/11

This girl has absolutely no self esteem whatsoever. In the interim...she tries to place the blame on the others in the house by stating that they were boring...and didn't want to engage in "educational" conversations. I truly feel that she was, and is, on the defensive concerning most things. She has a hard time fitting in wherever she goes, I would guess. As a coverup...she works at being different...and being confrontational... That is why she got along with William so well. He is somewhat the same way.. No self confidence...and feeling guilty about themselves only compounds--making the situation worse. She does care what people think, or she would not have gotten so upset about how she was an erotic dancer! I would suggest that she take a long, hard look at herself and clean up her act. She's whiney...self absorbed, and not a team player. I'm willing to bet she was this way all the way through elementary school..and up... unable to play with others..and causing trouble in the class! How close am I?
--BJ
10/11

Jean Jordan sames the same thing over and over again. Get over it honey and get a therapist. Obviously the world doesn't think you are some "hot" super star. And, you made $500.00 a night at a topless club? You have no breasts. You are an angry woman who needs therapy and you are a total disgrace to women in general. You called yourself the whore and you probably are one. I bet your boyfriend left you. He deserves better.
--JR
10/10

"Stupid is as stupid does" Momma was right!
--chy
10/10

Gee....How come everyone else came out of the house not whining about the editing? They were fine with it. Curtis mentioned the whole thing is staying true to the character you are. (Not a TV character just who you are inside). You are such a fake Jean Jordan. Those of us who watched the feeds KNOW there wasn't any slicing going on. SHUT UP ALREADY!!! You are making a real ASS of yourself!
--NG
10/10

Get over it!
--JI
10/10

Anyone who falls for the crap that the "editing" caused Jordan to look bad obviously didn't watch any of the live feeds. There is no worse job the editors could have done to her than she did to herself. She complained from about day one about how the "American public" was perceiving her. No one cared that you took your clothes off, Jordan, but they couldn't stand it when you opened your mouth. My advice: concentrate on someone else for at least five minutes a day, how nice they are and how much they have to offer, without a thought about yourself while you are doing it. You might be surprised at how much better the world looks when you are less self-absorbed.
--b
10/10

Good luck!
--sej
10/10

I did not care for the snibbling Jordan on the BB show. I care even less about her personal essay. She cannot write and its a waste of cyber space. As Jordan said on the late night show, " who really gives a rats ass!" She should follow her own advisement. Please Jordan, spare us any more of your ramblings. Or learn to write!
--DMM
10/09

Stop fucking whining! You were tossed for a reason, because you never even tried to accept the others for who they were. The world is not necessarily a better place because people have "deep & insightful chats." Take responsibility for your actions--you whine about being a stripper while in the same breath saying how you ran up your credit cards on "self-realization" trips to Hawaii and places beyond. I think stripping and the subsequent dreams/nightmares show a faint glimmer of hope that you realize that you must take responsibility for your actions. The viewers of Big Brother saw right through you--they would rather the $500,000 go to someone who would use the money towards its best & highest purpose rather than see it squandered on more "self-realization" trips to the Bahamas.
--SRS
10/09

you just feel stupid, because you had a warped sense of self thinking that you are smart and cool, when you are actually stupid and a loser. Now you showed this to america and you feel even worse. no one cares about you or your stripping. Get a life...
--cl
10/09

Jordan, Are you THAT starved for attention that you have to find approval from the public? Do you not have supportive parents or friends that can help you through this? Are you taking anything to heart what people see you as? You will never be liked until you fess up and take responsiblity for your actions. Stop blaming and making excuses. The public is smarter than to fall for that. Very Lame Jordan!
--KJ
10/09

I am really glad I read Jordan's personal essay on her experience in BB. I knew she was more then what BB depicted her as through editing. I hope she has the ability and strength to transend the negative, and concentrate on what was learned through the experience. I hope she continues on her path of enlightment. We are nothing unless we experience all aspects of life, good and bad. Good Luck Jordan with what ever you pursue.
--mlc
10/09

BINGO! af...:)
--TR
10/09

I wonder if Jordan really thinks she was all that. Stand back, Jordan. Vixen? I doubt it. Self-serving, self-centered, only thought about anyone else was how it revolved around you. Whiny, self-centered and boring are the reason you were banned.
--rlg
10/09

Hmmm . . . curiosity is sometimes a terrible thing. I wish I hadn't stumbled onto this, but I did, and I have to say: Geez Jordan. You sat in the red room talking about how you were going to devil Brit and Josh and keep them from 'hooking up', and you used your sexuality to accomplish your goals. And now you want everyone to feel sorry for you because all we see is a bitch and a stripper? What you see is what you get -- and your pity party article in a SEX magazine, to boot!! YEAH, we're beginning to see the real you!!
--af
10/09

Hey Jordan -- Forget about growing an "exoskeleton" and grow some pride. I didn't like you on the show and I like you even LESS now... and yes... you had EVERYTHING to do with it. Analyze THAT.
--SR
10/09

Jean Jordan you "Go Girl" !! Isn't that the expression to use here ... I never saw the show much until after she was gone but sounds like she was set up for a bit of a raw deal ... like "Nix the Vixen" to the voters it seems . Anyways , interesting expressions . I hope you (Jean) do recover and feel good about yourself again .
--RM
10/08

I personally enjoyed watching Jordan on big brother and was royally ticked off when she got banished. I am an adult woman and really liked Jordans personality. I think she is a strong intelligent woman who will go far in life and thank god she isnt a shallow fake person but someone who acts on her feelings. Unfortunately there are people in this world who cant handle that type of persona due to their own inner conflicts and insecurities. I say the hell with them all and Jordan stay true to yourself and great self assured people like me will admire people like you. I wish that I could meet you because you and I would become friends!!!!
--ds
10/08

I, for one, am not following "the herd". That was another statement Jordan made saying people who follow the herds are weak! That's a WEAK statement!!! She even said Brittney was weak.(Only because Jordan did not get her way, She was feeling miserable...So, she had to make Brit feel miserable by saying that to her!) I am no hypocrite. As long as Jordan throws herself out there in the media making unfair statements about people, I will be there to defend those she wrongs.
--TH
10/08

Jordan: I admire you. You had the gust to be real. You were honest and at the same time you were trying to jave some fun. People always judge characters in TV. They forget that behind that character there is a real person. Big Brother made you their own character and forgot to show the real you. Head High Jordan because it tooks guts to face everything and I some people are not as brave as you. AC Miami
--AC
10/08

I am thinking about entering into a film project where I am both performer and producer, this piece had made me think about myself as a versatile and unique individual. The piece will not make me decide one way or another whether to go ahead with the project but helps me confirm myself as a 'person' deciding to do this, not as a person who is 'a porno actress'. I am very interested in the sexual taboos and double standards involved in society which 'may' have had something to do with Jeans banishment. Her banishment may be to do with the media stereotypes' split personality which allows her to be both predjuciced against herself due to allowing the 'dangerous Vamp persona' (sexually available to all) yet released from responsibility like the 'innocent virgin'('actually, I wasn't sure I wanted to do this' attitude). Confusingly for some she displays both vamp and virgin traits!!! She feels self-conscious sexually for not 'conforming' to media 'expectations'. Had she conformed to one stereotype, would she have remained in the house? or would she have stayed if she had not been so self-conscious?? Is it possible not to feel self-conscious under these circumstances?? Does this view make complete sense?
--JLG
10/08

You guys are ALL hypocritical sheep. Baaaaa, follow the herd since you can't think for yourselves, that would be too hard. You accuse her of being mean, a bitch, hurting people etc and then what do you do yourselves? THE EXACT SAME THING. Go out, get AWAY from the computer and the television and find your OWN lives and stop obsessing over hers! Pathetic. Jordan, you were awesome, I wish that you and Will had stayed until the very end. Thank you for being who and what you were on the show, it was fun watching you, even for the short period of time. Best of luck with your future.
--AJ
10/08

You try to act like you are misunderstood and noone gets it because you "think" people are threatened by you. (I've heard you say that.) Sorry babe...That's just another excuse. You like to play mind games to create real relationships with people. (I've heard you say that also). You and Brit real close now that you played that mind game with her?. LOL Brit's a wise woman to stay away from YOU! Most people would be unless they like getting BURNED!
--EF
10/08

jordon (jean?), Thank you for writing this wonderful essay. I must admit, i was not your biggest fan, but i appreciate your honesty about your feelings. You give me new insight and much to think about in regards to reality tv. you are an excellent writer. your last line hit home hard. i wish you the best. cecilia myer
--cm
10/08

So HAPPY to see most everyone feels the same about Jordan. Poor Baby. Don't go away mad Jordan, Just GO AWAY!!!!!!!
--KJ
10/08

You are 2-faced and hateful towards others. Why don't you take a long look at yourself and shape up before you jump on other people and blame them for YOUR problems!
--ES
10/08

If you weren't able to handle being on the show, you shouldn't have gone. You shouldn't have taken out your own inadequacies and problems on the other people on the show. Yes they had (or have) problems too. But that doesn't excuse yours. You did not appear to make much of an effort to be even politely courteous to the others. I don't think of you as "that stripper" or anything like that, I just ended up thinking of you as someone who takes out her problems on other people, and yes, as a bitch, because that is exactly how you acted. It's not just the editing for the show, either. People could watch you on the internet all the time. I don't care if you don't like what I have to say, but at some point in your life, I hope you grow up and learn some manners, at the very least.
--JS
10/08

Jordan all you have done since you left the house is talk about how you were wronged - PLEASE!! You just can't handle it because everyone saw what "BITCH" you are and how you like to play games with other people's lives! You need "shut up" and get a life!! You are such a "fake" in more ways than one - no one cares about your "views" on the other HG"S! I think the reason you didn't like Brit is because she everything you will never be!! Please do us all a favor ane "shut the hell up - already"!!!!! God, it must be hell being you!!!
--EF
10/08

I don't think Jordan should trip so much on what people think of her. As long as she is happy with herself that's all that counts. As for the strip dancing, the body is a beautiful thing to behold, she should be proud and not denounce herself for what she chose to do. Consider it a life experience and go on. You can beat yourself up all you want and then when your older like me, you wished that you had acted on some of your ideas, at least she did, and she'll probably remember fondly. I say bravo for her she is putting herself out there and most of us won't do it,like the house they wanted no trouble, everything easy, life isn't like that it's hard and full of problems, I wish you all the best and forget what people think, your opinion is all that counts.
--DT
10/08

I always thought of Jordan as the one that has the most emotional/mental problems of the HGs (houseguests). I also speculate if we are seeing the beginning of a bipoloar disorder. I know a lot has been made about Karen and her instability, but she was going through a divorce, separation from her kids and BB, that I can understand she would be a little screwy. But Jordan - for all her claims of the Experience and getting to know others and herself -- hello - it was about the money. And what it took to win it, under those conditions...and hopefully it produced a show that would have hit the ratings. CBS is an industry, it made BB so it could make $$ and draw viewers. Maybe she went into the BB house with these "noble" ideas, but, that's not what BB is about. If that was her perspective of BB, then it was hers and hers alone. And because that perspective was not right, Jordan should not be so dang bitter that it didn't it out the way SHE wanted it to. Her bitterness about the experience is nearly palatable....when they showed her on her radio show and at the final BB. Jordan should start learning to accept responsibility for her actions, her behavior and for her choices. She shouldn't blame others when THEY didn't make the experience the way Jordan wanted them to. As she had the right and choice to behave the way she wanted to, so did the others. What she did chose to do was to deliberately pretend to go for Josh knowing Britt wanted him and then tell with glee in the Red Room to BB what she was doing. How nasty is that, Jordan? Or did they splice together film to just make you look nasty? Or knowing Eddie had a girlfriend model, to wear a model sucks T-shirt, to taunt and put her down. Or was this another splice? A body double, maybe? Cuz that just validated how nasty you are. It sounds as if it's the other HGs fault that Jordan was not amused or entertained or had more of an "experience." As for being Jordan the stripper - another hello - did she really think that America would embrace a stripper? Get real. Does Jordan seriously think parents in this country are watching their daughter sleep and think: "geez, I wish my little girl grows up to be a stripper - taking off her clothes and showing off her privates to strange men" or that moms are going "I hope my son marries a nice little stripper and she becomes the mother of my grandchildren". I don't think so! Jordan can rationalize all that she wants, however she wants. The fact is that being a stripper is not socially acceptable in this society and that a stigma is attached to it. I'm sure a lot of young, attractive ladies out there are hurting for money, but many many chose to work in more legitimate industries....even if it means taking a longer time to "get there". Their dignity, self respect and morals are more important...that you cannot put a price on. It's also interesting that she "had" to make more money because of her "self discovery" trips - more like self indulgent trips, regardless of the repercussion (getting in debt). Jordan, again, willingly decided to go into debt. This sounds more and more of a woman who is self centered, self-indulgent and goes for the easy gratification, then rationlizes her reasons, blames everyone but herself. Then seeks the easy way out, heedless of the repercussions. Then when the repercussions hits the fan, it's everyone elses' fault. All at the same time pointing out to how intelligent she is. Book smart she may be, but a total Uh Duh when it comes to common sense. Think about this: the "adult" industry is fed by little fishes like Jordan, the ones who can rationalize their behavior (for money, to become famous, to feed a drug addiction, to become somebody) ....yea, it's the Johns fault, the one who patronizes this industry...but guess what? If there were no women doing it, there wouldn't be an industry. Gimme a break. You play, you pay. PERIOD. Stop whining Jordan....and I hope your 15 mins. are up.
--nhf
10/08

ohhhhhhhh pleaseeeeeee!!!! you have no morals or are in touch with reality! you're sooooooo ME ME ME!!!
--eh
10/08

Jordan, did you ever think that maybe, just maybe you were the only honest person there. You could have been phony like Jaime, you could of come across as selfish, self centered, and shallow as she did. We all make choices in life, sometimes there good, sometime not so good. You remind me of myself.I have gone through life trying to please everyone, trying to win their approval. It has cost me alot of tears and time from my life. I'am a grown women now, 57. I feel like sixteen inside. I've raised two beautiful daughters, both very successful, been married for 35 years, had a great career, and yet I'm still looking for approval. I know why I'm still looking for approval, it is because in my youth I never had parents that supported me. Love, yes they loved in their own way. But I never felt that love, and to this day I guess I'm looking for that validation I never got as a child. Your a beautiful girl, your smart, your seem to be honest, be proud of your accomplishments. So you were a stripper, if you learned from that experience than it was worth being a stripper. Don't waist your life on trying to win acceptance from everyone. Love yourself, and enjoy the life you have left. Remember also you have a lot of aquaintences in this world, but very few friends. Well I've rambled long enough. I think your a lovely young lady. --mr 10/07 Good Grief! Some audience members need more help than does the participant!
--MT
10/08

Personally naked has to be the worst. A good essay, slightly rambling, but a solid voice. Margo Thom
--MT
10/08

This is me...but it's really not...this is me, but this is me....sweets, if you don't know who you are, then why are you surprised that the rest of America is having trouble?
--kc
10/08

You are having a live chat next Thursday on here ??...Ummm...LOL... What the Hell for?? Could it be because NOW people see you as insecure (among other things) and you want to make excuses for that TOO? ...I'm sure that's what it is...You couldn't stand that people may be thinking you were just a stripper, so you wrote the essay... Now you can't stand that people think you are insecure...Right? I guess there may be a few people there to feed you the fluff you need...The majority of us STILL want you to just go away already!...You do not intrigue us Nor will you!...We've seen all there is to you and are sick of it!!
--TS
10/07

Jordan, Don't be so hard on yourself. As weird as it all was, you had a lot of courage to put yourself out there in front of all the cameras. Most people would wig out in that situation or avoid it entirely. You tried to make it entertaining and interesting and you did. And now you're trying to debrief and learn from it. That's cool. Just don't take it too seriously and feel free to move on to the next chapter in your life's adventure. Wish you all the best. You've got a knack for writing...you might want to seriously consider continuing to explore that talent.
--SEB
10/07

What a condescending piece of shit. Who does she think she is? She constantly whines about how unfairly she is portrayed yet she comes off as patronizing and condescending. She continually belittles her former housemates as being unworthy of her self professed superiority. I hope she gets some serious therapy. God knows she needs it. She reminds me of an insignificant little rich man who drives huge flashy cars to over compensate for a small penis!
--JVS
10/07

AMEN! DF
--PL
10/07

Sure seems like Jordan has a chip on her shoulder and feels like she "has to" rag on the bigbrother folks who beat her---as well as voted her out so early. Obviously it couldnt be HER FAULT...its got to be everyone who is working against her and shes just a big VICTIM. In any case, I hope I speak for every Bigbrother watcher in saying that Jordan needs to just get over herself and look at herself and all she has to offer..stop trying to blame everyone else for her insecurities. You are a very attractive, intelligent young woman. Just get over it!!
--DF
10/07

UNLIKE OTHER CRITICISM I HAVE READ OF THIS ARTICLE, I FOUND JORDON TO BE QUITE INTROSPECTIVE & SEEMINGLY HAVING A GOOD GRASP ON REALITY. PERHAPS JORDAN HAS FIGURED OUT MORE ABOUT HERSELF THAN SHE REALIZES. A CAVEAT THOUGH, MAYBE SHE SHOULD UNDERSTAND THAT HER BEHAVIOR ON THE SHOW WAS SOMETIMES AS ARTIFICAL AS THE ARTIFICIAL & CONTRIVED CIRCUMSTANCES SHE FOUND HERSELF IN & THEN CUT HERSELF SOME SLACK. SURE SHE WAS SOMETIMES BITCHY & CONNIVING, BUT IT WAS ALSO CLEAR THAT SHE WAS INTELLIGENT & SENSITIVE AND SEEMED (SEEMS) LIKE A DECENT HUMAN BEING. AS SHE NOTES SHE HAS A PLETHORA OF ATTIBUTES--MY ADVICE, CONCENTRATE ON THOSE & FIND HAPPINESS WITHIN.
--LAW
10/07

Maybe some of you guys will understand Jordan better if you go to www.startribune.com Click "loose talk" then click "variety talk" Go through the list there and you will see the forum she had for questions and answers about BB. Read for yourself how defensive , attacking and mean this lady is!
--Moe
10/07

Jordan, your essay is very sobering and sad. I cannot imagine the pain you felt and are feeling dealing with such a public rejection. I am sorry that your experience with the show hurt you and put you in this positon. All of us have "ugly, gnarly" parts that we hide from others and unfortunately, BB took advantage of your position and airred yours...........I believe you can aptly recover from this experience by making something of your life that brings YOU pride and joy and ignoring what will truly amount to "15 minutes".....I agree with your observations that the other housemates were not genuine. Their insincerity is more comfortable for people to accept, however, because honesty is just not a very human trait anymore. Best of luck to you as deal with this hand you've drawn. I know it sounds Polyanna....but you can make something good come out of this if you look hard enough and think before you speak. Best Wishes.
--SW
10/07

Just finished reading jordans essay, exactly what i saw on big brother. she should have won the 1/2 mil for her honesty and depth. the others had no depth so she had no one to have a conversation with, well maybe there was some depth but they hid it well for want of that money.
--gp
10/07

that was cheesy...give it up it was T.V. you did what you did because you wanted it...
--
10/07

You're not a writer, Jordan. (yawn!) Keep searching for something you can do well!
--ST
10/07

I really didn't watch the show from the beginning. All I had to go on was the remaining house guests opinion. As far as I can gather, Jordan seems like a real person who would have added some excitement. Not by acting like some freak dressing up like a chicken either. I think Big Brother should have taken some control about who to banish so the show could be more interesting. Also so the viewers would feel the relate to the house guests. Almost everyone feels like they have something they regret. It would have been nice to watch someone you could relate to.
--
10/07

I didn't see Jean on Big Brother, but after reading her essay, I applaud her for her courage to be vulnerable as a woman & a human being. Yes, SO WHAT about what the nation thinks or says about Jean behind her back? Everyone has to deal with criticism from others, but it's only what WE think about ourselves that matters at the end of the day. Her honesty in exploring her feelings about stripping and being on Big Brother is refreshing and a good example of looking at ourselves, which everyone should spend a lot more time doing. Then they wouldn't have so much time to judge Jean, nor anyone else.
--lp
10/07

Just read the long rambling of Jordan purging guilt....insecuties, self doubt.....whatever it is she is searching to convey. I think that perhaps in a few years maybe she will know.......
--TF
10/07

Jordan....get over it! No one but you really cares that much. If you don't like what you see of yourself through the eyes of the public (from Big Brother)...then change it! Let the things you like about yourself speak. If you are not a stripper inside, don't do it. If you are are a private person...not into exhibition (like a hampster on Big Brother) - don't do it!
--ng
10/07

get a grip!!!!
--
10/07

Hi Jordan; I enjoyed you and Mega and thought it to bad when both were voted out early on. I saw your humor and your attempts at indepth conversation. I can relate for I saw alot of me in you. I found your essay insightful and honest, very similar to what you tried to express on the show. I too feel that I'm a misfit on the fringes of society and find to much fluff and not enough meat in conversations around me. I think it is because people hide in fluff, not really wanting others to know who they are for fear of being disliked. You and mega know who you are and you should not feel shame in that. It takes a brave soul to discover ones own faults and acknowledge them. Look around - most people talk about others but very seldom does an individual say you know these are my flaws, I'm aware of them, I may be working on them but it is all a part of who I'm. Take care from one flawed person to another! tammy4302@aol.com
--tlg
10/07

Who gives a fuck about this girl. Get over it already.
--FU
10/07

You should learn how to write�and, also, to think. As it stands, you're just a dumb hoor.
--RS
10/07

Feedback Part II WOW! I should've read some of these posts *before* I posted feedback. Speaking of judgemental people...the harshness in some of these posts is un-$#@%ing believable! This one really stands out as a positive though; "My dear, my dear... just the simple fact that you are asking the hard questions of yourself show that you are more than a "stripper" Nice post David M....read it people and apply it to yourselves... (BTW, originally I was NOT a Jordan 'fan'; but after watching the live feeds and realizing just how CBS portrayed the hamsters the way they *wanted* to portray them, I am working to not be so judgemental, and not just with the BB crew....it is SO true that things - and people -are not always as they appear) Cheers all! Jen vintageorama@aol.com
--Jen
10/07

Fantastic read Jordan (and nerve.com)! I hope that writing this for you was cathartic; it certainly gave those of us who thought we knew you (yeah right, from a TV show?!) a more indepth look into the 'real you'. And it really hit the nail on the head about how alot of us feel, even in day to day living; why DO we care so much what others think? And why is 'personal' nakedness so damn difficult, when 'physical' nakedness isn't? (but in some cases should be?) Who the hell knows! I wish that I didn't care what anyone thought about me, but unfortunately I do...glad I'm not in from of millions or I'd really be screwed! I hope things go well for you and kudos to you for giving the Big Brother thing a try; think of it as a learning experience and give a big fuck off to those people who just don't get it....=)
--Jen
10/07

You were labeled "the stripper" because you chose the label...and you were banished because you were not likable. At least most strippers have a personality. And people called Jamie superficial and into herself! All you lacked was the lip gloss.
--KHG
10/07

Quit wallowing in yourself. You have so many things to be greatful for. All you do is dwell on the negative. Remember you reap what you sow. If all you put out is negative that is all you will get back. You can't stand anyone else getting attention (Josh & Brit) so you sink to childish tactics to draw attention to yourself. It was not editing that was your problem it is your personality. I have been confined to bedrest for 6 months and have seen much of the BB webcast. I think CBS made you look quite good considering what you gave them to work with. They could have shown some moments that would have given people a more true impression of your miserable self.
--TCB
10/07

Get a life Jean Jordan. You sound like a spoiled, self-centred, self-indulgent, attention seeker. Instead of trolling message boards all day, I suggest you take some time to think how fortunate you really are. Your problems are nothing compared to some people in this world. Quit being so damn self-indulgent and do something productive with you life. Did you ever stop to think people don't like you simply because you always bring them down. The other houseguests were a happy bunch. Pehaps you can't deal with a situation where everyone isn't as miserable as you are.
--dmg
10/07

Jordan has some real problems. She needs to get her act together. Maybe you are looking in the wrong palce. I would say God and religion might help her. You need to stop feeling sorry for yourself and being so judgemental of people. Your attitude stinks and you do not fit in well with a group. YOU NEED SOME HELP GIRL!!!!! Make something of yourself and life instead of drowning in self pitty. You need to learn how to make friends and be a friend instead of overpowering people with your thoughts and attitudes and make them feel you are interested in them. You are always on the defensive and people do not like that.
--K
10/07

Wow...what an incredible piece. Jordan, you are a strong woman and you should be proud to be who you are. You are young; you are free to make mistakes and learn from them. Unfortunately, some of your mistakes were strongly shaped by CBS and evaluated by a huge number of onlookers. Just remember, you can't please all of the people all of the time. Keep your focus on the people you love and care about and forget about the rest of us.
--SN
10/07

This article is trying way to hard to sound educated and articulate. Lose the big words and get to the point. Not only are you a drama queen on tv, but you are trying to be one in this article. Get over yourself already. Let us know the real you, not the one you want us to think you are. You got voted of a REALITY tv show BECAUSE you weren't real.
--smm
10/07

Well done, Jordan. I like you more now that I have read thoughts. I am 61 year old grandmother and I can tell you that many "lives " personas are ahead. Your strength and intelligentces will soon evolve to allow you to validate you. Life will be more stable then. Remember senvsitive intelligent people feel more, know more and are wonderfully fucked up. Go granddaughter go. You are wonderful. Good things wait for you.
--mw
10/07

Jordan can hardly be compared to Hilary Clinton or Madonna. LOL. Neither woman aired their souls to the public. While Hilary was going through her trials, she never once let the public know how she was really feeling. Madonna stepped out of the limelight for a bit to reinvent herself. She never once let the public know what was so personal to her. Why? because that is being strong. Not giving a rats ass what the public thinks. There's a bit of a mystery to them which is cool. Jordan has no mystery.
--MK
10/07

WTG Jordan, From someone who watched on the internet and agrees that the editing was designed to try and make interesting footage from mostly boring people. I dont know or claim to know anything real about the "characters played" in BB, but I do know that there is always more than meets the eye. Good luck, I hope your book is a best seller!! I'll certainly buy a copy.
--TB
10/07

Maybe you can ask your boyfriend for a Diary for Christmas. It could help you not to go "naked" to the public!
--LL
10/07

WELL SAID JORDAN
--PS
10/07

Jordan, I agree and support you 100%. It seems that our society feels a need to put down women who are strong, independent, intellectual, outspoken, and attractive. I mean, look how famous women like Madonna or Hillary Clinton were trashed in the media just for being themselves. Why do we still expect women to play these stupid little care-giver, dumb blonde roles all the time? The women who piss me off are the ones who do play these roles (i.e. Martha Stewart). They are forever perpetuating the myth that women must take a backseat and nod their heads in agreement with whatever the herd mentality is. Yuk! We live in a shallow, priviledged society and it sucks sometimes when you try to be honest and go against the flow. I totally get what you mean by "models suck". This is all coming from a gay guy's perspective, if that means anything. Anyway, I wish you luck in your endeavors and can't wait to read your book! If you care to respond, I'm at j001@sprintmail.com. Peace!
--JP
10/07

It sounds like Jordan has been convinced by the rest of the world that "a stripper" is now her entire self-understanding. She seems intellegent enough to leave that behind though, after she gains a little distance from the situation of Big Brother (which seems like pure evil even though I've only watched a few minutes of it). Everyone has questions about their self identity and I think this woman will come to terms with hers rather quickly by being so brutally honest.
--LE
10/07

I loved this article ... and I watched big brother.. at the start .. but like jordan said the two most interesting people .. the two people who i would most likely be friends with in real life( with the exception of cassandra) were voted out first ...and second ... I totally understood what jordan said about being boring and playing cards ... and "good" conversation is so much better .... the show was boring .... they did a horrible job of casting personalities .. i think they just viewed the people at a very stereotypical level .. and thought the viewers would too ... i was dissapointed .... that being said i hope the people that took part in it got something out of it ...positive ......
--svc
10/06

Everything Jordan said about herself is true, which makes her hard to like. She seemed too stuck on herself. it was hard to watch her. I voted her out because she was just too annoying.
--JU
10/06

Jordan? QUIT WHINING!! Deal with your issues, grow up and don't expect someone else to do it for you. Believe in yourself, don't be so HARD on yourself, you DO NOT have to be perfect--nobody else is. If you just think of yourself as some loser stripper, so will everyone else! QUIT BLAMING EVERYBODY ELSE FOR YOUR PROBLEMS. YOU chose your own path, if you don't like it, YOU must change it. **whew**!! I wish you well and much happiness--but it comes from within you. Peace.
--dm
10/06

Jorden is soooo full of shit, it's unbelievable, I barely got through the article. She has got some soul-searching to do, she doesn't even understand herself or any other. Her antics are total fiction full of bullshit. All it boils down to, is she needs and craves attention which her type of "persona" doesn't deserve, she definetely needs a reality check. Move on and become someone.
--JW
10/06

YOU WERE GREAT SORRY YOU FEEL THAT WAY ABOUT YOURSELF IT IS PART OF GROWING UP
--CP
10/06

The problem with growing up is that we all seem to do it at our own pace and some never seem to really get there at all. Jordan, you are so young and these experiences one day will seem so trivial compared to the rest of your life. They are a part of who you are and you need to accept it and adapt. I look back on the past 40 years of my life and wince sometimes at some of the things I have done, but from each experience I was able to gain valuable things that took me to the next phase of life. Take the chip off your shoulder and start living you will be surprised how many people will be more receptive to you. You will find as long as your confrontational people will always shun you, because lets face it, life is hard enough without someone out there always trying to stir more crap up. As for deep conversations, did you really think these total strangers would just open there lives up to you and share all? Come on, deep meaningful conversations are things most people share with those they trust and know well, not 9 other strangers you are competing with for the same prize. I have found that the more I learn the less I really know, meaning that just when I think I have life all figured out another twist in the road appears. Like the commercial says the things you think you know are so much smaller than the things you don't know. All you have endured so far is just a blip in the life of Jordan, there is so much more to go and trust me, if you let it all this will someday be just a silly thing you did once when you were young.
--KB
10/06

Just like david letterman we are all for you jodan...
--AFK
10/06

Personally, I liked Jordan. I felt at the time that it was a huge mistake for the HGs/public to vote Jordan out. I really enjoyed the Essay, "Recovering from Big Brother", and feel that she has represented herself honestly. I think that out of all of the HGs, that Jordan has a great future, in anything she may choose to do. Frankly, I would like to see her in Television, as that would be the most obvious way to keep track of what she is doing. I see her as very articulate, and aware,(and she looks great on camera). Based on this essay, if each HG wrote a book, I would be inclined to buy/read Jordan's first, and wish that she had had the benefit of the entire stay in the house, to right about. I am also interested in the book she is writing about her experiences proceeding the BB House. I live in the Los Angeles area, I work in Television, and I hope that I have the opportunity to meet Jean Jordan someday, or even work with her. I would like to hear from her. Holly, temporarily at: MzGolitely@iwon.com
--H.G.
10/06

It seems there are many responses to this essay. (Some are harshly to the point--Some are more kinder to the point) The harsher ones are responding to your ego that they feel needs to be brought down a few notches.>> (Hit her hard because she is too proud to see it herself) The kinder ones see through that ego as just a defensive method you use to survive.>>(Give her words of encouragement to build herself up) In my eyes, I see they both bring out the same point. Do you get the point Jean?
--M.C.
10/06

My dear, my dear... just the simple fact that you are asking the hard questions of yourself show that you are more than a "stripper". Hell, there are CEO's that haven't asked some of the questions you're struggling with, never mind come up with an answer! ...And on top of this, you're educated, fit as all get-out, adventurous and brave enough to choose stripping as a path of self-discovery, wise enough to know when to get out, and honest enough with yourself to admit the similarities between these past two negative experiences? Geeze, you'll be lucky they don't throw away the key... Seriously, though... I have a friend who chose a similar path through the stripping world, and emerged much as you seem to have: wiser, a little bruised, a hair too cynical and way too low a self esteem. I am happy to report that she is now one of the most spiritually sound people I know. Her choices are sometimes still un-fun, but she almost always makes the right decision the first time, and almost never has to make the same decision more than twice. Not quite the light at the end of the tunnel, but perhaps enough of a facsimilie that yo'll stay on the train a couple more weeks? ; ' ) Really, I know that it's hard...I am a Seeker too, although I have not had to go through the kind of blut-instrument-like battering that you girls did, I've certainly had my share of tests, and I like to think I'm passing most of them lately... So, through my own trials and the recountings of my friend, I would like to think I have some idea of how you feel, and hope that this will be enogh to give some credibility when I try and give some "helpful words of wisdom": If you haven't already seen these corrolations between the two experiences: both are excellent arenas for learning the fine nuances of human interaction precisely because they are environments where some of the "norms" are way out of whack. This kind of puts all the others up for grabs, in a minor sense, and depending on how you push and pull at this new malleability of the other norms, you can learn a lot in a short time. This is good for in-the-trenches knowledge, but you take a beating getting it. Often, people who put themselves in these kinds of environments are trying to learn/prove something fundamental about themselves...what are you trying to learn/prove? Is it still worth learning/proving? ...already learned/proved, but you didn't notice/were persuaded otherwise? betcha, betchaa...betcha have/need answers to at least some of these questions... betcha, betchaa... Or maybe not... What do I know? ...But some of my money is still on those questions. I'd at least look in that direction, if for no other reason than to prove this old thinks-he's-so-clever doofus wrong. The penalties for not looking when you should certainly are expensive, though...trust me. Anyhow, my purpose in dropping this note is not to be all serious and gloomy...at least not the biggest part, anyway! What I really wanted to do was to try and give you a voice of support and encouragement, and I hope I have. If I haven't, go back and read the beginning of this again, and I'm sure you'll see it better this time, after all, we've had this little chat now... And that was my other goal: that it be a _personal_ voice of encouragement and support... that you get, if even briefly, some sense of a me-to-you feeling, and know that someone has thought well _of_ you today, and that someone has wished well _for_ you today. I hope I have accomplished this, and would like to close by wishing for you that whichever deity(ies) you (pray) to answer you in as least-obscure a manner as possible (practicality side-by-side with spirituality... hmmm, never did _that_ mixture before...I think I like it.) Cheers, David Morrissey Daveroo@home.com ---------- "Shall I tell you one of the things I find most beautiful about your species? It is that, when things are at their _worst_, you are at your _best_." Jeff Bridges, in "Starman" (paraphrased)
--DM
10/06

All I am is thankful there is noone remotely close to Jordan's personality in my life. :):):)
--G.M.
10/05

I happened upon BB one night recovering from a particularly tiring day and almost turned it off until a woman with a wicked grin and a cunning sparkle in her eye came on screen. Even though I didn't tune in regularly -- I still couldn't tell you what nights BB came on -- Jordan was absolutely the only one there with any intelligence or interesting complexity. (Brittany was complex, but in a messed up way. Jordan diagnosed her perfectly.) The last time I saw BB was the night Jordan was booted -- the show lost all interest after that. I was absolutely amazed that she had the gumption to walk into the CBS studio, watch the clips, and take CBS to task -- live on the air, no less -- for the spin they put on her personality with selective editing. Jordan is a strong, thinking, sexually powerful woman -- of course she inspires such revulsion in most of the audience, and her readers here. We're in the 21st century and still can't handle a woman like that, even 20 years after Madonna hit the scene. Who knows, in 200 years they may be showing re-runs of BB to demonstrate how cowed and dysfunctional Americans were in 2000. Jordan, however, will definitely be the favorite of that audience. Yes, Jordan is immature and still learning to know herself and come to terms with who she is. She's light-years ahead of her peers, however, and even ahead of most people ten years older. Keep on kicking ass, Jordan. Read some Susie Bright and Carol Queen to get comfortable with your sexual power, some Chomsky to learn how the media (dys)functions, and keep writing. You'll be just fine, without a doubt. --G (gregdk@hotmail.com)
--GS
10/05

Jordan: I Love You! You are a great person! I wish you could have stayed in the house longer, because you were my favourite house guest! Can you please e-mail me back at: andyb86@hotmail.com Thanks, Andy Budgell
--AJB
10/05

"Smarmy CBS host Julie Chen grinned like a barracuda" Wow! That was a good way to discribe how YOU were feeling! Not necessarily how Julie actually presented herself. I guess (by saying that) it just adds to the drama you keep trying to create for yourself. Also saying your houseguests were boring to you and CBS edited you all wrong. Put some assumptions you have of others on the line to defend yourself. YES, that will work to make me look good!! Ha! Ha! What a joke you are Jean Jordan!
--D.S.
10/05

If you are a confrontational woman then you should have already known before entering the house that you don't mesh with everyone. If you are a "drama queen" then you should have already known before entering the house that your extreme mood swings were a natural part of you. If you are a flirtatious woman then you should have already known before entering the house how you love attention from men. You say you went into the house to "find out" about yourself but came out feeling rejection and insecure. Were these traits of your personality something you DIDN'T know before entering and now you are just finding out? And if you did know ....Why the need to defend yourself? Because it sounds like you are so unsure of who you are in your essay. The essay is like a journal a woman keeps of herself...Working through her own emotions by writing things down (I do it myself but I'm blown away that you are making it public in your such early stages of your personal growth) If you keep asking yourself questions and writing down these feelings, you won't find the need to search for assurance from people and outside sources and your writings will become more and more positive and not so confused. You will look back at your essay and say "Wow! I can't believe I wrote that! Was that really me?"
--PRS
10/05

...tick....tick....tick Your 15 minutes are almost up
--WRV
10/04

I have never understood the ability of most people to be so judgemental of others. On the other hand, I, like you, am extremely judgemental of myself. Your writing was extraordinary. Reading it made me want to know more about you. By the way, I didn't see the show - I don't see the purpose behind it (and similar shows). We're all under a microscope far too often in real life.
--TC
10/04

Jean Jordan, Paralysis to me feels the exact opposite of your feelings of exposure. I feel the real me...all that I am, have ever been, and will ever be, has been irrevocably cut off from quality interaction with my fellow man (and more importantly in my mind from women;<). However, in both of our cases our feelings are probably being blown out of proportion by two factors...silence and fear. The silence is distorted by our fear of rejection into proof of being rejected. But such is not always the case. We both need to remember that responses we excite in others is by far more often dependent on what they're capable of giving than what we are worth receiving. And regarding your fellow man, Jean, you need to realize and accept that what you percieve of as rejection of youself is quite often no more than the self-absorbtion of those whose approval you seek, and beleive that if the whole world were to turn its back on you, it could be in the wrong while you stand in the right. No one and nothing else, Jean, is worth you not liking yourself.
--JPK
10/04

Excellent piece! Well done Jordan.
--BU
10/04

Interesting. Great to read a from-the-heart essay from a HG who we saw and heard only through the filtered CBS editor "eyes". It is interesting also to see that I'm not the only one who doesn't care for Julie. Jean does a good job in sharing her personal feelings about her experiences and her views of some of the other HG's. Maybe this SB required reading?? for the other HG's.
--JH
10/04

Stripping can really do a # on a woman's self esteem. Your essay shows that! Your focus has been for so long on just your physical aspect of yourself; that you haven't worked on your inner being to stay healthy. It was a foolish move to put yourself on BB. Nevertheless, you must take resonsibility for your actions. You thought the producers would see you more than "just a sterio type stripper". That was NOT "their responsibility. They were not in the house telling you how to act. I believe from watching the feeds , you should thank them. There were plenty bad scenes of you that they DIDN"T air. I'm wondering how you can EVEN justify that. Your actions in the house were that of "Trying too hard" to be something other than what you felt you were. 'I'll show everyone there is more to me than just a stripper' Well Jordan, If your so called image of yourself doesn't match what you actually feel inside then "trying to be strong" will make you look like a bitch. That is why it is easy to see through a bitch because she always has a chip on her shoulder, is bitter and defensive. You can not be strong until you have a good sense of who you are inside. It's Superficial otherwise.
--Ohh
10/03

How long are you going to milk your past (which you say is done and over..BB and stripping)? As long as it gives you attention (negative or not)? Time will tell.
--P.L.
10/03

First of all Jordan, I don't know you any more than the rest of America does. They all just think they do!But let me tell you my opinion.The day you got banished the show stopped being interesting! Everyone kept walking around trying to be what they thought they should be in front of the cameras!It was supposed to be a "reality show" and that was the last thing it was! You sound like you have alot of questions about who you are or who you want to be and that's pretty normal. I think we all do.The difference is we didn't all just put ourselves out there for all of America to judge.What you did took alot of guts. It showed that your a stong person.If everyone else in the house would have played it honestly they too would have people judging them as much as your being judged in the public eye!They decided to play it safe instead. I think you were the only one who had the guts to be who you wanted to be and I appluad you for that.You could have been like Jamie who was so scared to give an opinion about anything so she just agreed with everyone the entire time! If you ask me, you didn't make a fool out of yourself. She did! She came off as such an airhead!!lol. I guess what I'm trying to say is,don't let people(especially those idiots in the house)make you question what kind of a person you are. You showed that you were better than all of them! I also find it hard to believe that this is just my opinion! Just be who you are honey, your doing just fine!
--B.G
10/03

What a very provocative piece. Jean, there is something I don't understand exactly. You write convincingly about how uncomfortable it is to open yourself to the judgements of all these people you don't know... But then, you knew what it would be like and auditioned anyway - so was it so uncomfortable really? And when the audience didn't have the opportunity to get inside your head, you wrote this piece on Nerve which lays bare all that a stipper holds most private - her unvarnished thoughts. It's like the stripper who isn't content to remove her clothes, but wants us to see her medical x-rays as well, and once we have, attest to her health. Thgere is a basic truth to both these images, those from the stage and those from nerve. A stripper may not be emotionally who she seems, but she is physically; at least that much is truely revealed. Is the nerve image also real within the scope of its limited range? the stripper gives herself up to be disected and the parts judged, that's all part of the game. the masochism is that she gives this role to anyone with a cover charge in their pocket. "Too flabby" or "Fat ass..." Jean, based on the images presented - assuming the image here is what you want to project - you are cute enough, strong enough, smart enough and emotionally balanced enough to satisfy anyone. I just wish you were self aware enough and self accepting enough. There! We're done.
--jdg
10/03

What a smart girl.
--DL
10/03

I think maybe you should consider the fact that no one in the house thought you were funny, because you weren't. And the only reason you flirted with Josh was because you were so angry because he liked Brittany instead of you. Grow up & get over it.
--EMT
10/02

I think you could have learned much from Cass had you tryed. She is definately the strongest woman. So strong ,in fact that she felt no need to watch the tapes. She was THAT secure of herself. If she had gone to the message boards, she too would have heard some bad things about her. Mean things were said about everyone of the House guests on there. Cassandra is above that!! Wise woman!
--(RS)
10/02

Jordan is a very strong woman. I really didn't want her to get kicked out of the BigBrother house. She was definitely not boring. She was always ready to discuss something and talk about things the other members wouldn't dare bring up. And about being a stripper. It was an experience for her. It's not like she's making a career out of it. She has a good head on her shoulders and a lot of people don't know how to deal with a strong woman like Jordan. I think she's got more personality than most of the other "house members" put together. Jordan, fuck' em. You are kicking ass. You know what you want and you go for it.
--NT
10/02

Jean Jordan, You started stripping on a whim. You went into bb on a whim. You entered bb with all this baggage from your first whim. You had no foundation to feel good about yourself because you hadn't even dealt with your first whim until you were already into your second whim. I think you were ashamed and covered it up by saying, "I'm writing a book on stripping". You desperately wanted to be liked by your houseguests (but you didn't like yourself). You kept trying so hard to compensate that fact that you came across as someone you that you STILL deny today.~~~And you blame your houseguests?! All they saw was what we saw~~~Backstabbing, selfish bitch who was too insecure to face it. That's why you were voted out.
--Moe
10/02

___Your self discovery trip starts by searching yourself Jean. It's always easier to put the blame on something else or someone else because the journey can be painful as we peel away the layers which made us who we are. But it is very important if we want to know why we do the things we do and also why we react the way we do. Don't search the internet for your answers----That would be fruitless.
--LLA
10/02

Hi, Jordan - I enjoyed reading your article; it was just the Jordan fix I needed. Mega was a bad penny, but you were the kind of person that the BB casting director(s) needed to find more of. You were, and still are, a person to whom people react -whether positively or negatively. Josh was cute, and Cassandra had class - but no one else on the show, except for George, brought the show to life as much as you did. Although I continued to watch the show with great interest, it never did hold quite the same appeal to me after you left the show. Good luck in your future endeavors!
--JPK
10/02

EXCELLENT ARTICLE... I REALLY ENJOYED IT... WELL WRITTEN... TOMTOMLIN@YAHOO.COM... AGE 30... SOUTHERN INDIANA...
--TJT
10/02

This is to Jordan: Jordan I am a married 35 year old mother of 3, who found you to be one of the most interesting people in the house. I once read a book called "the key to happiness" by L ron hubbard, though i do not buy into that religion, it is a really good book, perhaps you should read it. In the book he talks about knowing yourself, and not buying into other peoples perception of who you are, as well as taking responsability for the effects that people's perception have on you, in other words----You have to take 50%of the blame if someone hurts you, because in order for someone to hurt you---you had to have allowed them to do so. If you get a chance try the book---it is really helpful---and as I said i am Catholic, but someone had recommended it to me. And again, know that not everyone thought of you as just a stripper, I certainly didn't----what stood out for me was your strength, and the confidence you showed (except for those few times when you were upset), and your accomplishments and goals. Don't let anyone pull you down, this article proves that you have what it takes to become an author, and I look forward to reading your book...BEST OF LUCK TO YOU>>>>KEEP YOUR HEAD HIGH>>>>>YOU CAN'T SEE THE STARS IF YOUR HEAD IS HUNG LOW!!!!!! Hold on to my email address and write me with the title of your book---Please. keep smiling....its uphill from here!!!! mvm522@yahoo.com
--mvm
10/02

I think Jorden is self serving to a fault....... aand clearly ashamed of who/what she is. She should work to become comfortable in herself rather than using others for validation. Only when she is comfortable with and by herself will she be able to be with the world and with a single person for the RIGHT reasons... NOT for entertainment/needs/definition/validation but because she wants to be where being ehrself is enough.... loved for that and giving the same. Its simplker said than done byt possible. I KNOW.
--aaa
10/02

"We find what we search for--or,if we don't find it we become it."_____Jessamyn West "If you do not tell the truth about yourself, you cannot tell it about other people."___Virginia Woolf "No woman was ever ruined from without; the final ruin comes from within."____Amelia E. Barr
--P.S.
10/02

Hi Jordan, I didn't watch BB -- YAWN -- but I did read your essay, and I'm really impressed by the intelligence and thoughtfulness behind your writing. I'm sorry your 15 minutes of fame wasn't what you wanted it to be, but in time I'm sure you'll be able to look back and laugh at the experience. Hope you'll pursue a writing career because you're definitely gifted.
--Kai
10/02

Jordan, thanks for such a painfully honest account of what you felt in and out of that STOOOPID BB prison cell. It was really great! I watched, mostly the feeds after your Interview with that gasbag Gumbel and I realized how right you were about the "editing". They, BB, certainly had their favs. As another attractive young woman, I know all too well how we destroy each other out of jealousy and petty bullshit. Pirhana have nothing on jealous women. I understood clearly you were bored to DEATH, hell who wouldn't be! Anyway Jordan, f**k em, if they dont "get it" leave em in the dust until they do. Kick ass and dont EVER explain!!! Be yourself. Oh and BTW, I voted Curtis out and trust me I wasn't alone. A decent number in the BB chatrooms FINALLY, agreed that after you and Mega were voted off, the show just pain sucked. They WANTED you guys back! Go figure. Good luck with the book!
--jsr
10/02

I WANT TO KNOW WHY YOU DONT LOVE ME, IM JORDON THE STRIPPER. I'M THE HOTTEST WOMEN ON EARTH AND IF YOU DONT LOVE ME, THERE IS SOMETHING WRONG WITH YOU. BECAUSE PEOPLE PAY TO SEE ME NAKED. YOU THE ONLY ONE THAT DIDNT ACT LIKE A HUMAN WHEN YOU WERE VOTED OFF, IF YOU DONT WANT PEOPLE TO SEE YOU AS A HOOKER. STOP USING YOU 10 SECONDS OF FAME, I HAVE 50 DOLLARS, SO SHAKE THAT__________!
--STRI
10/02

the only reason people see you as a stripper, because every other word out of your mouth,is stripper. hi, im jordan, why due you hate me for being a stripper, josh i want you, o did i say i was a stripper, im writting a book, o and its because im a stripper. for the love of god i cant figure out why people only focus on me being a stripper, look at everything elsa i did, strip, pay for college by stripping, good iron women (got into it to stay in shape, so i can make more money as a stripper> have a boyfriend met at the club. i mean look at every thing elsa i have done. i fogot now i have a radio show, most be because of everthing i have done and not being a stripper, got to go on letterman?? why because of your smarts, i guess you cant be smart if you think so.
--slut
10/02

Much good advice given to you on here. I hope you are open enough to take it all in. If not,(understandable, your actions show you haven't come to that level yet). Just wait (Oh, let's say about 10 to 15 years with several years of therapy thrown in) then proceed to read again and see if a light bulb goes off.
--VJ~~
10/01

Jordan___ It is true what people are telling you about deep talks. If you were so aware of all the cameras there, then why didn't you just address America on your own about your so called "deep thoughts" on important issues? (If it was THAT important to you AND If you really thought you had "something" to say)____Because, I believe (as do a huge majority of others) that there was nothing else going on in that head of yours (except mean spirited and conniving head games) and you continue making excuses for your behavior!! You don't want to be a victim? OH PLEASE! Noones making you a victim but yourself! Stop crying a river and Grow Up!
--Ben
10/01

i like her writing style but she is trying to make reason for her being a sex crazed,back stabing bitch. why, did any one elsa try to be who there not, not eddie and he won. saying i was trying to spice it up, what ever. you were the same bitch from start to end, is she sexy hell yea, but 2 min with her i would be looking to bitch slap her.
--se
10/01

jordon was the only untrue person there. she said on thing then did something elsa. this is the person that talk about how she was so scared of what people would think, then she sat in here room putting on a show for the camerman (bob).naked and oiling up here body. she will talk down to Brittany,about being in bed with josh. then due the same thing? people see you as how you live your life. if you a virgin, hardworking father, or a bitch as a human being. i loved every second of big brother after jordon left, she is the type of girl that walks around, with a chip on here back. saying god im so hot and if you dont love me there something wrong with you, sorry jordon, there nothing wrong with us its you thats screwed up. you like the camera and the spot light, it was perfect for your book, so stop blaming the world,and big brother. also come closer i got a buck to give you, now show me some skin, because we all know your only true calling in life;
--dlm
10/01

Please don't blame it on the other houseguests as being boring and not wanting to have "candid talks". From watching you, you were not capable of talking deep. You say that you think of yourself as an "honest" person, Why not start being honest with yourself? Your houseguests had depth but you were too concerned about YOU to see that. I noticed how uncomfortable you were every time there was a group setting talking. Like you didn't know how to be yourself. The only time you looked comfortable were the times you were playing games and drawing attention to yourself. Like by the pool with Curtis and Josh. Just loving the attention you were getting from these men!! But when the rest of the house guest joined in at the pool, again you would clam up. Almost like you were frustated and jealous that the attention was no longer on you. I'm sure your stripping days have caused you to act like this. By reading your essay, it's clear your thinking has become warped to what reality really is.
--BKL
10/01

I love the way "Jordan" writes. She is obviously a thoughtful and bright woman. I have my own stress at this point in my life, with a chronically ill spouse. Had I been in the house with her, I'm sure she would have interested me more than anyone else. And her body is as spectacular as her mind. if she ever comes to Dixie [MGM in AL] I'd want to meet her face-to-face.
--jpl
10/01

What a self-indulgent nutcase you are, "Jean." Do you have any idea how badly you are in need of LOTS of therapy?
--RKO
10/01

JJ - "Well behaved women rarely make history" cove714 on IM
--MC
10/01

what a complete waste of time. you must have someone there to provide some type of jounalistic assistance.
--sm
10/01

Jordan, Your essay and portrayal of your experience and feelings surrounding it left me with goose bumps. I, personally, feel you have a future as a writer. If nothing else, you have used writing as an outlet to release the emotions that so consumed you. There are many of us outside the house who feel as though we, too, are trapped in a maze and are in a 12 step recovery program. I can't begin to imagine what you underwent nor what it must be like now for you. My heart goes out to you. You're a strong woman and you will accomplish whatever life throws at you. From a 54 year old retired psychologist/grief therapist/writer.
--ALH
09/30

Hi Jordan: Just wanted to drop you a note to tell you that I think your a great person and have a good future ahead of you. Saw you on the last BB show and you are so much prettier than Ja-Me-ME-ME. Your a real down to earth *natural* person - not a fake or phony like Ja-Me-Me-Me. I wish you well in all your endeavors and I know you will succeed in whatever you choose to do. I liked your "Recovering from Big Brother" article also. -You Go Girl.....- (52 year old woman from Erie, PA)
--ps
09/30

Let's see, Eddie swore, belched and passed gas too much...So what?...He admitted it and was ok with himself...Cassandra kept peace and didn't involve herself with things she wasn't comfortable with...So what? She admitted it and was ok with herself...Karen came off as a backstabber towards the end...So what?...She admitted it and was ok with herself...Brit wore her heart on her sleeve...So what?...She admitted it and was ok with herself...NOW, here is where I'd like to saw..Jordan was a stripper...So what?...She admitted it and is ok with herself...NOT THE CASE! You see, if you were ok with it yourself, then you wouldn't care so DAMN much about what people think and you wouldn't be making such an issue of it. It's not the stripping in which people dislike you, it's calling yourself one thing and living another.
--TM
09/30

WOW from the uk, just checking out this site, but big brother has just finished here in the UK.... Jordon, sorry haven't read your article yet, but from the reaction of the replies, it doesn't surprise me that some people react so hostile to you, after all you are a female, that has been proactive is earning a living (by what ever means/hype) what does strike me is the reactions to any women, in the sex industry in the states, so hypercritical ... Jordon kept up the hype, keep up the profile and make yourself very rich.... Keep sane! To the morale bushers in American, turn the other cheek and get a life! (slap) you don't like it/her then use your freedom to walk away and not partake! from female from London:
--CBT
09/30

Hey, don't know if this will ever reach Jordan, but I think she was the only real person on the show - the others, apart from Eddie, were obsessed with using the show to start careers, which if they had any talent they could have started themselves. I thought she was funny and real and that she would be fun to hang out with and was impressed by her having done triathlons - it takes a lot of work and dedication to do that sort of thing. I hope that she is out of the sex industry, simply because the high pay makes it dangerous to leave - but I'm sure she'll succeed. Probably better in the UK or Europe simply as people there are more honest and less superficial. Good luck to her! Female writer in 30's with 2 kids
--FSR
09/30

This loser is an incurable exhibitionist. First stripping, then "Big Brother," now this "self-analysis." What a pretentious, pseudo-intellectual, forgettable bore!
--ml
09/30

The candidness of this artcile is excellent. I live in Germany so I cant realy know how the show or the US background is, but maybe thats better. I like this person, even if she is a stripper !
--SRF
09/30

I picture Jordan sitting bewildered and naked in a corner. Her body is limp. Someone approaches her_ grabs her arm and starts slapping her face over and over again with her own hand. As the world chants "Why do you keep hittin' yourself? Huh? Why do you keep hittin' yourself?"
--JJ
09/30

Wow, you did a good job, it went right through. Thanky, Nerve - yr th' gratest!!!! with most sincere love for one of the really really very best sites, I remain...
--NJC
09/30

Well, I certainly don't envy you. I didn't watch any episode of the show, only read the salon articles about it, they were pretty savage I think. This is coming from a completely uneducated standpoint, but I think you were crazy to go on that thing. It may have been necessary, but jesus! what could ever possess you to do that, to think it was a good idea. At the same time, I am writing advice to a not-even-starlet on the Internet, so what do I know. Please do not attempt to contact me. Nerve, please don't be lame-ass bitch-ass punks and edit that last part out. Or this part. HAW HAW HAW!
--NJC
09/30

Jean, You're just another stripper to everyone. You came off as a condesending bitch. You thought you were SO smart and good looking and the truth is you're just a wanna-be. You are evil, mean-spirited, 2-faced, bitch. You are so ugly and I hope you just say out of the media cause I'm already sick of your bitching and cryin. Go read a dictionary and learn what the meanings are of all those words you say out of context. Because you certainly don't know them yourself. And for your body. I don't see how you ever got a jod stripping with that flat ass and that flat chest of yours. And add that with your ugly face and big broken nose and no lips and straight oily hair it's a wonder you could find that fugly boyfriend to begin with. Get a life and get the fuck out of all of ours you ugly whore bitch cunt.
--an
09/30

Kh....I'm sorry but it's not black and white terms. Middle America is not threatened by women "In a degee of sexual agency"....What the HELL is that suppose to mean? My only guess is that by some funky way we middle Americans just don't get it? Come on!!!....We know sexuality and are better in touch with our sexuality than someone who sells themselves. Are you trying to say because we never put ourselves in that position then we don't know the meaning of sex? Sounds like it to me! Apparently, you are not reading Jordan right. She is not even in tune with her own sexuality because of her past stripping....And you embrace that kh? At least Josh has come out of this learning from it. Jordan fights it all the way. Jordan continues to show the public how messed up she really is.
--TS
09/29

Jordan: You're a complex and not easily defined woman. I enjoyed watching you in the BB house because of your confrontational nature. I was particularly interested in your disdain for Josh and his attraction to you because it was sexually based. But, really, what else was he going to feel? You hadn't let him come to know you in any substantive way (not that I blame you; the environment was entirely superficial). He's clearly not a thinker, he's immature and he was completely out of his depth when he was dealing with you. That's no crime. He's simply naive and immature. I think a generosity of spirit was lacking on your part and that may have served you well in terms of gaining popular support. Sell your book. Enjoy your notoriety. Middle America will always be threatened by women with a degree of sexual agency. Fuck them. There's a whole subculture of people out there who don't define themselves in strictly black and white terms. Embrace them.
--kh
09/29

Jordan, You should see if you could write as a 'regular' for nerve.com. I suggest this because it seems like people hate you and love you... the perfect blend to keep people coming back. You would be a good writer for this Website because when you discuss any issue you are very 'self' focused. And this is what enables you to spurr conversation. I would like to suggest a tip for your future personal development though. My belief is that thinking about yourself is healthy in moderation. However, self-care is very different from self-centered. It is important to figure out why you react the way you do in various settings, but you need to know when to stop focusing on yourself. You gain a very powerful skill set when you do a lot of maintenance of your emotions. You learn how to give advice to others, tactfully. Because you scrutinize and overanalyze every little reaction YOU have in life, you are better able to give advice on how the advice seeker would be best off to react. You tend to blur the line when it comes to public and personal life by focusing on your opinions into your public/professional life. Being opinionated is good as long as you turn 'opinions' into 'facts'. This way people will be more apt to listen, pay attention and respond to you. I would appreciate any feedback, you can reach me at: Lea23@telusplanet.net
--LS
09/29

It's funny how Jordan steals words and phrases from those who have posted things about her in the past. Very creative Jordan. You are not capable of your own thoughts unless it's from someone else? Dictionary not helping you these days?
--MO
09/29

Yes, I agree with sp also and many other critics on here.
--TS
09/29

Masochistic??? Doesn't make sense. If that's true, then you just contradicted your last paragraph of your essay.
--NAP
09/29

Hope Jordon gets this.......... i just had to add to my post.......................! Life is like a book.All books are differant........ So are gods creations............ don't gage your life on others opinions........... just live your life. If the chapter you wrote was not comfortable then close it and write a new one !.................. Just keep writing your book and take the positive and leave the negative behind!!!!!!!!!!!!! Go Jordon and don't judge yourself or strive to make "OTHERS" believe things.be true to yourself only...............
--nj
09/29

Wow Jordon i loved your candor !!!!!!!!! You go girl .........don't look back and don't worry about approval..........It will be your downfall!
--nj
09/29

Jordan, I think this is an excellent piece, well written. I see the human side of you as not before. Yet, the clip we saw of you on the radio station the other night asking to get the Big Brother song off (the song the HG were singing), I saw the arrogant, nasty side of you again. It is hard to tell which you are. If you want to be perceived as the nice, intelligent person...then you need to be that person with all honesty and sincerity. I can appreciate the difficulty of living in such confinement. You need to decide who are you are so. It's as Gary Zukav says...KARMA. The way you are perceived by others really is the way you perceive yourself. Best wishes
--kkw
09/29

Jean, I don't think you are very good at reading people or picking up vibes. Perhaps it's because you are constantly absorbed in yourself. I believe you went on about 1 hour and 1/2 with your speech "I want to know!" Could you not tell how much you repeated and repeated the same thing a zillion times and the houseguests were bored to tears?!Finally, after enough is enough, Curtis said "What else do you have to say? Obviously, there is something else you want to share with us" You first wanted to remove Eddie, before you told your secret. Saying that he looked uninterested...Well DUH!!!...You beat it to the ground!!(It could be you were afraid of what Eddie may say after you cut down his girlfriend) Then you tell it all about how you stripped in the past and the HG"s acted like "Oh..Is that all?!"....You made it more of an issue than it was because were uncomfortable and insecure with yourself and from what I see....You STILL are!
--PB**
09/29

If you don't like that it's public, WHY do you keep making it public? You are not the only human being on this Earth ya know! We all have our own issues. Being that you constantly want to deal with yours by going public only shows you CRAVE attention!
--Bre
09/29

Jordan, I never saw you TRY to get into any meaningful talks. Curtis mentioned to everyone that a good time for such discussions may be while someone was riding the bike if they felt they wanted to do a one on one. In fact, he tried doing just that while you were riding. He was asking you questions but nothing "deep" was coming out of your mouth. Also, during your dramatic session which you called all the house guests together, you carryed on and on to make YOUR point but was not ready or able to listen to what your houseguests were saying to you. You began to get all frustrated that noone agreed with you. A few comments were thrown out to you by the HG's and you instantly attacked them. When you behave that way, people will not want to continue talking to you. Even Mega saw through that and laughed at you after it was all over. Real discussions start by being real yourself_ coming to a place were the listener can tell you are being sincere_this opens things up and makes what you say valid even if they disagree. Your emotions were on a roller coaster while you were in there (That was easy to see) but it had nothing to do with your houseguests. I remember one episode (watching you on the feeds) where you were laughing and having fun, Josh was on your bed and Mega was standing near it. You made a comment with your legs spread "If someone wants me, better move fast because I'm out of her in 3 days". After a few moments longer, Josh left like he was turned off. You commented "Come back later"...He just kinda threw up his hand and walked out. Within 3 minutes your mood changed from happy to sad and you began crying to Mega. (But of course, you made an excuse to where those tears were coming from) It was plain to see that it was the rejection of Josh that brought those tears on. You thought you were in control by your seduction but it didn't work. Something to think about Jordan.
--TM
09/29

Great Article Jordan....You have been my favorite big brother from the get go...I see more than anything a bright young woman who is so open to learning...please dont be jaded by this or close down your seeking...I promise the answers you will find will be worth it all! Remember even though there were negative things said there are alot of us in America that adore you too....Its frustrating not to know where to send all of our positive word so you will hear OUR voice:) and even though we may never meet I feel like Ive known you for months now.... and you have a friend! Blessings and peace to you always!!
--LM
09/29

Remember when your mom or grandma used to say, "If you can't say anything nice about someone, don't say anything at all." I admire the people who are trying to make helpful comments about this article, but for those who are being downright nasty--is this nastiness really necessary? There's another old saying: "When you throw dirt on someone, you can't help but get a little of it on yourself."
--GG
09/29

you need to just be yourself and not who ever it is you think you want to be
--
09/29

Jordan, Get over yourself. It's obvious you define yourself through men. Accept that fact or get professional help. You were only in the house two weeks and you're STILL talking about it. You were voted out by viewers like me because you came across as a real bitch who hunted down one man after another. So just forget about Big Brother. Most of us have already forgotten about you.
--CC
09/28

sp hit it right on the nose. The rest of you people who seem to admire this chick need to get a life...
--
09/28

MR, What a great post!! I enjoyed it so much, I read it 3 times. Have you ever done any writing yourself? You should, you express yourself so well. Sorry for posting this but there is no e-mail addy to send to MR. Just wanted to say thanks MR. :)
--AMM
09/28

Dear Jordan, I like the way you write. You are clear, descriptive but concise, and it is a pleasure to read your thoughts. I think it will be good to read a book written by you, and I hope you finish your book soon and wish you luck in finding a publisher. I don't imagine you will have too much trouble. I understand your search for yourself...your search to figure out where your problem lies, and if it is, in fact, your problem. I am on such a journey myself. I can't begin to tell you how thankful I am that I don't have to deal with my issues on national TV. It was not an easy position to find yourself in and for that, you have my sympathies. I don't think you are all bad, although I did vote for you to leave the house. ;o) Mostly, I did that because while I agreed with much of what you said (as I did with Will-Mega) I thought that you came across very badly sometimes, and I watched you a lot on the video feed, so this wasn't a result of the editing. Mostly, though, it was just that I really like Curtis and didn't want to seem him go. No big bad feelings there. ;o) Anyone who judges you shows their moronic nature in the judging. You are smart, and funny, and open-minded, and interested in difficult conversations. You are not afraid to try new things. You are a good writer, and I think that you could be on to great things. No one should judge you as all bad, even if there are things about you they don't like. None of us are perfect. None of us. I would personally love to know you. I, too, love those deep and challenging talks about all sorts of things. If I had been in that house, I have no doubt we would have become friends, because I much prefer that type of talking over fluff, although fluff is fun too sometimes. I can only imagine how frustrating it must have been for you. In truth, the advice I would offer you is this (and feel free to take it or leave it): Don't think everything is about you, because it isn't. You seemed to spend a lot of time talking about yourself...about who you were and how you believed. You said you wanted to learn about people and different things, but then instead of listening to what people were saying about themselves and their feelings (and yes, there were other meaningful talks going on between people) you seemed to spend more time talking about yourself. I know that it is hard when you really want to get a point of view across...but listening is really important and can really surprise you sometimes. Another aspect of this is MAKING everything about you. It really seemed to drive you nuts...this thing between Josh and Brittany. And that makes no sense. You have a boyfriend you say you want to be with...so what went on between them should not have been your concern. I think that the way you seemed to shove yourself into that situation is what bothered most people. We saw all the stuff going on all day over the live feed. We saw you in the red room, talking about how Brittany would never have Josh while you were in the house. It was very much as if you were being manipulative...using your looks and sex appeal to mess around with a relationship that might have had real potential. (I'm sure right now you are saying...OH PLEASE! ;o) but I mean it. ;o) ) And even if it didn't, Brittany's feelings were involved, and so were Josh's, and in a very real way it seemed that you set out to sabotage that just for the fun of doing so. That is mean spirited, whether you want to realize that about yourself or not. I truly don't think you meant to be mean...I think you just wanted and needed attention. Maybe there is more attention seeking behavior you need to look at, I don't know. But I would imagine that the stripping job would have fed into that a great deal and was probably one of the more gratifying aspects of the job. But unfortunately, in real life, it is not a quality that endears you to people. I think you need to stop worrying about what other people think about you and remember that we ALL are imperfect and screw up. Every one of us. You are human and that is part of being human. You see, not only does remembering that keep you solid in the fact that you don't have to take crap from people just because they have an opinion...but it can also separate you emotionally from your issues. When you remember that we all have them, you can look at your own as, I don't know...just as what you have, rather than "what is wrong with you". See, I believe that it is our challenge...our goal...in life to find these things and try to fix them. So being able to look at them honestly and realistically is terribly important and in order to do that, you have to take the emotion out of it. It's much better to say, "Gee, sometimes I'm a little self-serving and egotistical. Sometimes when I want attention, I can be a rather cut-throating bitch. Maybe I should figure out why and how I can treat myself better so I won't need to do this anymore" than it is to just make more excuses. I have learned to think very frankly about these things in myself. I consider them to be my darker parts that balance out my lighter parts, but I'm still trying to change them, and finding a lot more success in doing so now that I'm not making excuses for them or beating myself up about them. In fact, once you stop beating yourself up, or imagining that the world is doing it, the need for excuses removes itself from your life. You don't have to think of yourself as a bad person just because you have some issues. If that were true...then we would ALL be "bad people." Anyway, I know this is long winded. I'm not even sure that they will print it. I just wish you well, both on your psycho-spiritual journey, but also in all the mundane aspects. And I wish I could figure out a way to give you my email addy without the whole world seeing it. Oh well. LOL
--MR
09/28

JORDAN, Growing an "exoskeleton" will not help you. If you do that, you will not be true to yourself. Telling someone to F off will only make you look like a Bitch. We can see you are deeply unsettled about your past. These are issues only you can work out. It wasn't the Show. It's not the people out there who dislike you. It's not that your houseguests were different than you. It's not that YOU feel that you are known as just a stripper. It's not any of the labels that people have bestowed on you. It's none of these things. It's knowing who Jordan really is and working thru these things that haunt you. Take the time to get to know who you are. When you do, you will be comfortable in your own skin and not so doubtful. If you want to continue searching for your answers on the internet, then be prepared for the feed back because as one person said on an earlier post, you are proving yourself transparent.
--AMM
09/28

Please pass this on to Jordan , if possible. Due to a boring stint in a cubicle this summer I became a BB addict, especially dedicated to one message board. To relieve boredom I have engaged in endless "conversations" about the show and done my share of slamming the houseguests.Although I have never worked in the sex industry, I am not that different than you, educated, outspoken, emotional etc. I didn't care for you based on the way you were portrayed but this article has given me a different perspective and I feel compelled to write you. I'm sad that you read the message boards and I can imagine the horror. Please, for you own well being realize that most people are engaging in these chats for entertainment and the truth is we don't know you. I for one wouldn't want to truly hurt you or any of the houseguests. Take this opportunity to take care of yourself, stop reading the web, get out of the limelight and stay out. It won't be long before your life will be yours again. I'm sending you some good vibes as you move on and heal from this experience.You're ok, just another woman working it out. Love from a sister, Kate
--KL
09/28

JUST A HUNCH... but I wouldn't put it past Jordan to be writing fake positive responses to her own essay here. It's very hard to believe that there are people out there who like and support her personality. Unless these people LIKE being stabbed in the back. Jordan, you could tell us all to F**K off but you know deep inside you will STILL need mending. Please put the focus on yourself and leave US out of it. In other words, fade away!
--TS
09/28

Jordan, Quite overwhelming, the response to your article. There's no grey area here - everyone seems either entirely for or entirely against you. For my part, I congratulate you on your article and hope that you continue to heal from the experience, but even more I hope that you find something in it that you can take with you as a positive step forward in your own growth. Ultimately, I think that's the best any of us can hope for - no matter how devastating our experiences, to be able to choose to be made better by them. As for what you do for a living, I say keep dancing if it makes you happy - but _only_ if it makes you happy. And as for all the people on this page calling you a whore, calling you a bad person, pay them no mind. Take those responses for what they are - a passionate response to a passionate piece. Some people just don't channel their passion well. Good luck!
--LNH
09/28

this girl needs HELP!!!!!!!!
--bf
09/28

The only long-lasting job you've ever had is stripping. You've never had a decent job in your entire job. You're a failure. You will never amount to anything. I feel sorry for your parents, and all those who you burden with your petty problems. I don't know why anyone would want to associate with you. You have nothing to offer to anyone.
--rich
09/28

Jordan - I read your article and it helped me understand you a lot better than the TV show did. One glimpse into your angst showed up early: the first hour you were in the house. There was a long camera pan of you walking up that long interior hallway, forward then backward, gauging the cameras' range. You had a scared look in your eyes but also a defiance - as though you were determined not to be victimized by the cameras' intrusiveness. There was no way that house could have been the self-discovery jihad you hoped for - too many diverse personalities turned it into a circus. The editing was poorly done too. But please, don't fault yourself and don't judge yourself so harshly. I regret at times that my life seems "measured out in coffee spoons" but I do hope that you can achieve your wish - to grow a thicker skin and not to allow people to pierce it with the arrows of callousness, malice and indifference. You'll find what you seek.
--RSM
09/28

Well, Jordan... You seem to be forgetting your immature Jr High School antics in the RR about Britt and Josh. You were so jealous of the attention Britt was getting that you had to retreat to childlike behavior. That is why I voted for you. You aren't naked... you are transparent!
--jbw
09/28

I am not impressed at the least. You are a slutty stripper with no self asteem. If you wanted you could ovecome all this wimpy shit by focusing on your atheletic abilities. You get what you ask for. You live your life as a slut and you will get the respect a slut gets... "NONE". Get a real job and get on with your life. Just the sounds of your name annoys me. You should have been the first to go....
--MSB
09/28

JORDAN, i AM A 36 YEAR OLD NURSE WHO CAN REALLY RELATE TO WHAT YOU ARE FEELING. I HAVE WATCHED EVERY EPISODE OF BB AND FEEL THAT YOU WERE YOUR HONEST SELF. NOT SOME MADE UP PERSON WORRIED ABOUT HOW YOU WERE BEING SEEN ON TV. YOU LET YOUR TRUE FEELINGS COME OUT ISNT THAT WHAT THE SHOW WAS SUPPOSED TO BE ABOUT? YOU KNOW IT SUCKS WHEN YOU GET PUT DOWN FOR TELLING PEOPLE THE WAY IT IS EVEN IN A RESPECTFUL MANNER SOME PEOPLE CANT HANDLE US DIRECT HONEST PEOPLE I SAY TOO BAD FOR THEM. I WOULD LOVE IT IF YOU E-MAILED ME BACK I AM AN EDUCATED WIFE AND MOTHER OF 2 I AM A VERY SOCIAL PERSON I SEE ALOT OF YOUR OUT GOING ATTITUDES IN ME
--BON
09/28

This is really sad what Jordan is doing to herself. She is obviously very insecure and searches the internet to discover herself. Jordan, no matter how people interpet you, you must stop throwing yourself out there when you are so pained and confused inside! Your insights of everything will come to you if you will just step back and take a good look at where these feelings are REALLY stemming from. The reason you are feeling naked is because you are not so sure who you really are. People can truly see that. That is why they attack you. So...WHY in the world would you place yourself there? It's like you thrive on it but can't handle it either. I think most people have seen and heard enough of your whining. Get out of the media and find the help you need because we can't do it for you.
--TS
09/28

Jordan, I have never responded to any Big Brother article but felt drawn to yours. I am a 38 year old mother of a 20 year old son,who would be quite proud to have a daughter as beautiful,smart and caring as you. I thought you really showed your true character when you did not nominate Britt because of a man,although Britt was not as secure with herself as you are. I wish you all the best, keep your head up high!!!!!! You should be very proud of yourself. Mydogmandy815@cs.com
--K.S.
09/28

Excellent article Jordan - I watched / heard many of the live feeds and the "portrayed" you was superficial and a ratings grabber - I admire your strength of character and wish you all the success in your continued determination to be you! It takes guts to live life to the fullest - remember "Life is bootcamp for the soul" - as long as you are not hurting anyone else, be true to yourself.
--MR
09/28

Hello Jordan You Rock! I am a Grandma of two. What you did for a living was a great route to go to pay for for education.What you did for a living was just a job.Nothing more nothing less.I do not think some of these ass holes should judge you.Who in the hell appointent them your keeper.What the hell did they want for the show.Some burger king worker or what.I just find it sad that you wanted to open up and talk.And everyone else was so dull.I guess people just do not know how to carry on a conversation.My boss and friend of 22 years wants to buy your book.Please keep us posted to when it will be out.We are looking forward to buying our copys.Thank You! Ruth Ramirez tealdolphin@webtv.net
--R.R.
09/28

What is there about Jordan that causes such passionate feelings among the readers? Jordan, if you know, I suggest that you bottle it and sell it! You'll be rich in no time! Congratulations on your excellent article.
--GG
09/28

Jwhoredan, your article is as tedious as you were in the Big Brother house. I suggest you go back to stripping for a few years--you're no beauty already--and then work as Will-Mega's housemaid.
--CE
09/28

Jordan, I think your essay regarding your experience with "Big Brother" was well written. You expressed your experience with great articulation. You have had many accomplishments and can be proud of them. You made a few mistakes as did every single person who criticizes you. If you forgive those who have hurt you and learn from those who care about you life will become a little easier. Don't let the bastards get you down!
--TZ
09/28

Sorry to break it to you Jordan, you're incorrect to think America saw you as "Jordan the Stripper." America really saw you as "Jordan: the narcissistic and immature woman that doesn't really understand herself." From everything the public has observed, plus from the content of your article, could it possibly be yourself not seeing you as anything but a stripper? You are grasping for excuses to chalk it up to CBS's poor editing. I am one of those unfortunate souls that have watched EVERY show so far, and am a nightly viewer on the internet. (And no, I am not a teenager, but a college educated mother of 2 almost twice your age.) You portrayed yourself as arrogant, manipulative but also showing signs that you are hiding some big insecurities. If you really do want the world to view you with substance and intelligence (sorry but you may need a few more years of insight before obtaining), than why pray tell is sex the main theme you constantly refer back to? It still sounds like the same Jordan everyone saw on BB. Your essay gave the impression that your pleasant memories of the house were about Will commenting on your ass (which any educated woman would have been insulted by this harrassment)and about your sexual advances with Josh. This smacks of someone that is still trying to get approval from men to validate who she is. Maybe the best thing for you would be "not" to pursue more public arenas until you seriously look into psychotherapy to figure out why your self image differs so drastically from your outward behavior.
--sp
09/28

Interesting article. I think that by Jordan maintaining her honesty and stating that she was hurt by the other houseguests shows integrity. I just wish that Jordan would hold back on her harsh words towards Britt. Jordan stated she didn't like how people perceived and judged her, she shouldn't do that to others. Maybe she still has a lot of unresolved anger to work through. It looks as if Jordan's road to self-discovery is just beginning after her banishment from BB. Good luck to you Jordan!
--KV
09/27

You're still a skank whore!
--666
09/27

May I please ask what the Fuck the people who go on these shows expect?? Jordan lasted all of two or three weeks, acted like a goof for the entire time, I found her to be extremely fake and annoying. Of course the entire nation is laughing at you. I cannot believe that Jordan danced for more than two weeks because it seems to be such a "Big" thing with her, as if it defines her more than being "educated and a triathelete. Who cares that she stripped? Tons of girls dance and most of them are making a hell of a lot more than five hundred bucks a night. Also, there is no way in hell Jordan wrote this article. The words are too big. I remain as unimpressed by this girls woes and worries as I was by her "performance" on Big Brother. Get a real job and shut up.
--dam
09/27

Jordan, I really think that you should have stayed on the show, it became more like the Brady bunch after you left. I really enjoyed your honesty in your article and i wish you the BEST for the future. You are beautiful, smart and a very interesting person (or at least thats what i saw on BB)Hang in there and grreat things will come to you.
--GAA
09/27

Jordan, I want to congratulate you for holding out on CBS and Big Brother, and making them pay for that last video clip. I think it's interesting that most of the banished house guests have been willing to suck up to Endemol and CBS. When Brittany was banished, she stated in her interview with Julie Chen on The Morning Show that the editing was unfair. That was Monday morning. By Wednesday night, when she was paid to come back for the live show, she told Josh that the editing was great. What a difference two days and a few thousand dollars make! When you would not give in on the unfair editing aspect of Big Brother, they branded you as having emotional problems. Paul Romer made remarks about how you were not handling your banishment well, and how Karen had been able to cope better. Mr. Romer, entertainment industry weasel that he is, can't understand why you couldn't be bought off. After all, anyone who holds the truth and her integrity in higher regard than money, must be disturbed. I was sorry to see you leave the house, and I hope you are doing well in your current endeavors. Please let us know more about your new radio show, as mentioned in the Big Brother headlines challenge.
--ASM
09/27

Jordan, Take a look at the positives you got from the show...your opportunities! Whether you like her or not, Britt took the opportunity to recreate herself...a pharmaceutical rep to quirky party girl, with an agency signing. You WERE a stripper. That was yesterday. Forever starts today. I was happy to see you had opinions. So, I really hope you choose not to see that the show took advantage of you..but that you can now take advantage of the opportunities. As another Minneapolis girl, I want you to stop sounding like a sore loser. I know you're better than that. Good luck.
--LA
09/27

I agree with what mh said below. You are not defined as the "sexy dancer". Sexless maybe, but definitely NOT sexy. Have you considered implants?
--kf
09/27

Wow! You "pro Jordan" types are spooky! That said, what's the URL for Jordan's "money" shots?
--FPL
09/27

Jordan KICKED ASS. She was the only character worth a damn on Big Brother, the biggest television failure since Rob Lowe did that Snow White dance number at the Oscars. Jordan was banished because the houseguests were afraid. They just wanted to subvert, cuddle and pretend they weren't in this game. In short, they wanted all the good stuff (fame, attention) but none of the bad stuff (putting themselves out there). But the real truth is, the public doesn't know what it wants. If given the opportunity, it would ruin every great show by voting out the most interesting -- Rich on Survivor, for example. Jordan should ride the crest of this stupid show as she is the only one with any kind of charisma, any kind of stuff to make the world pay attention. Those other assholes? Who gives a shit about them?
--SS
09/27

Jordan you are a strong woman and Americans aren't ready. Jamie is getting the same treatment. She is being put down for her "lipgloss" as if this is who she is. You are not defined as the "sexy dancer". Not in my book. Hell with the jealous women and the sexist men. Josh is a joke. You exposed his shallowness. Wish you had been allowed to stay and make Karen, George, Brittany and Eddie all do some "real" work on themselves. What a cartoon those four are and Karen had the audacity to say you were unhappy. Brittany is a flash in the pan. She was so annoying I couldn't handle it. I would encourage Brittany to seek professional help for the obvious childhood trauma she suffered. You are the best! Don't question yourself in that respect.
--mh
09/27

Powerful article, very real. I think every one has felt that way about something in their lives. I, for one, will buy your book when it comes out. I hope to find the same kind of deep reflection you show in this article. Keep writing like this (deep and from your soul) and you will find acceptance, if nothing else, from yourself.
--TJS
09/27

Jordan , get on with your life honey. Everyone of the hgs were protrayed in different ways . I saw your time with josh on t.v. and do not agree with how you feel it was protrayed. You are fine , dancing , so what. Look what has happened to you since you left. bb did help you out maybe not how you dramed it would be but you did get a break and it was from being in the bb house. every hgs has been talked about . you are doing fine and i am proud of you . get on with your life and do not be bitter, it will hold you back.if you had not gone in bb no article and the other things you are doing,chin up and thank bb you do not want the image of bitterness . you are doing great and the best of luck to you.a lot of people do not protray you the way you think they do. love polly p.s. i do not like the virgin either p.b.ritchie@worldnet.att.net
--p.r.
09/27

You really need to stop self-examining yourself and just live your life. You controlled everything we saw in the house. I am an "internet fan". If you did not want to be portrayed a certian way then you should have never allowed yourself to be in a situation where you are exposing your outer shell as well as the inter shell. I would just chalk this up as an experience and just move on. If you don't like your bb experience, just move on! Stop dwelling on it.
--cac
09/27

very interesting article... I was a closet, 2-3 times/per/week watcher and this was a deeper look into Jordan. I am not surprised by anything that was written here- but i must say it is interesting to see that she is still so "naked"...even after all the lights have seemingly faded on her.(ie: Primetime guest appearances and such) My question is does she really WANT the lights to fade, and if so why is she conducting a radio show and writing articles? Tough decisions. Good luck to her, though.
--DF
09/27

Jordan, You go girl! The house became boring after you left. Don't take all the critism to heart. There are always going to be people that are jealous of you or just don't like you. It is the same for everyone, only you feel it more because of your Big Brother experience. You can't please anyone...just please yourself and stay strong!
--DB
09/27

Hi Jordan. If this is really you, and you are reading these notes, then I wanted to say that normally I wouldn't reply to anyone especially from a show such as BB, but I found your article very well written and it compelled me to reply. You should NOT feel bad at all, as you are a very interesting, and beautiful girl. I thought you were great on BB and was sad that you were voted out so quick. I knew it was going to happen, but didn't like it. That show was a TOTAL waste of your time and energy and you should NOT care what others saw and what they WANTED us to see. Anyone who took actions etc from that show seriuosly are morons. It was TV and the editers showed us what THEY wanted us to see.. You should be SO grateful that you got out when you did. Do you even realize how many of those HG'S are actually HATED in America and even Canada??? At least you have most of your dignity left. People such as JayME etc Do not!!! There lives are RUINED from that show.. You are lucky... Anyhow. I think you seem like a great girl, and if I lived near you, I would be thrilled to be your bud. As for your "past" WHO CARES. That was sometihng you did for money, so just let it go. It will eat you up if you don't. Be PROUD of yourself and put that BB experience (lack of) where it belongs.. IN THE TRASH!!! Time will heal.. Best of Luck Jordan.. starr_eyes@hotmail.com
--CJ
09/27

Jordan, Don't let it bring ya down! You were one of the only interesting people on BB. The show would have been 10 times better if you were there until the end. If I had your body and brains I'd take full advantage of the strip job too. You are obviously very smart and insightful. Don't let the public (who until now have failed to vote out Jamie, in MHO the poster girl for birth control) affect you. America is filled with idiots. You happened to be in the house with several of them.
--BS
09/27

Jordan, Don't let it bring ya down! You were one of the only interesting people on BB. The show would have been 10 times better if you were there until the end. If I had your body and brains I'd take full advantage of the stip job too. You obviously very smart and insightful. Don't let the public (who until now have failed to vote out Jamie, in MHO the poster girl for birth control) affect you. America is filled with idiots. You happened to be in the house with several of them.
--BS
09/27

You are in your late 20's and are experiencing your "Saturn Return." After you pass 30, everything will finally be clear for you and you will wonder why it bothered you to begin with. Saturn Return happens to everyone; you are not unique. Although I am a huge fan of yours, I will render one small piece of advice. Remember Rule #62: "I am not as important as I think I am." Best wishes to you. friendofdot@earthlink.net
--pvr
09/27

I feel Jordan is a woman lost in others interpretations. She came into the house with her label of a "stripper" the public didn't care, and only started to care when she made it an issue. I feel very sorry for this girl and do pray she gets the help she needs. She is a very Intelligent, and accomplished Woman but that doesn't mean much when you think you are being viewed a certian way, when it's yourself who is making you be viewed that way. I sat for the 3 hours she took telling the HG about her stripping day's, bored out of my mind wishing another HG would have told her what I wanted to say, "shut up, it's not that big of a deal as you are making it out to be" but she continued and really had no substance on what her Issue's were other to validate what she thought 100 times more. I cringe to see her on CBS, listening to her pathetic mumble of how "the public" see's her. Megga didn't go in there stating he was with the Black Panther Party, no he kept it to himself, so why didn't Jordan? Because Jordan wants everyone to play "pity party" on her pathetic life as she makes it. Wake up Jordan the world is not out to get you, your out to get yourself, get some help quickly and realize when someone makes a comments or gives an opinion it's theres and they are not wrong on how they feel towards you, that is the #1 rule you need to learn. Good Luck.
--LD
09/27

An excellent, well-thought out piece of writing by a person who is more than the sum of her parts. I am glad to see that my positive opinion of Jordan has only been amplified by how she has left the house. Obviously, it's a strange experience she put herself through, and having failed it would be tough for her to hold her head high. I want Jordan to be careful to not come off all high and mighty, though. The fact she is taking some blame, and continuing to be open and sharing of her emotions in an intelligent fashion is very insiteful into her character. This article generated a HUGE response in a day... look at all the postings! I hope it gets reprinted in a general interest magazine, or can launch Jordan into a career writing for magazines. I hope to hear more from her in the future.
--MAN
09/27

dear jordan, i enjoyed watching you on bb and i hope you know that for every "nut"case out here, a few remain that understands what being there would do to a persons core beliefs.you were a fresh breeze among really boring people and don't feel bad about josh, i am happily married and i would not want to face him in the dark.lol good luck to you on your search for truth and remember life is never to be taken too seriously.
--nb
09/27

Sounds to me like Jordan has a problem identifying herself in any way other than sexually. Appears to need to feel interesting and appealing to others, but when positive attention isn't received, she resorts to flirtation and titillation. Seems to me that she is suffering from very low self esteem. Perhaps the next attempt at self-discovery should be through psychoanalysis, which might better enable her to understand her needs and discover means of expressing herself confidently and positively. Good Luck, Jordan.
--dt
09/27

I totally understand how you feel about everything. I'm also very outspoken and will say what is on my mind. They should have kept you in the house & it would not have become so boring. So what if you were a dancer. You keep your body up and work hard at it and have nothing to be ashamed of. Feel like I have been ridiculed most of my life. Even in high school when girls couldn't understand that I got along better with guys than girls,of course, that gave me a reputation that was not deserved. So whatever you do keep your head high & keep smiling.
--PJ
09/27

I think jordan wrote a very articulate article. I do see her in a different light. I wish her well. The program was so boring after she left.
--dbo
09/27

I really enjoyed Jordans article. Shows she's not a dumb ex stripper, but extremely intelligent. Good for her, I hope she makes something positive from this stupid experience.
--bar
09/27

Jordan, you can make it. Just thank God that you left early and have not gone through all of the smutt that the others are going through
--jw
09/27

Dear Jordan: Excellent article! I was personally looking forward to watching the personal growth you describe in the article -- too bad the voters opted for more mundane fare. But it appears though BB has given you a good push along that journey -- I hope it's an interesting and rewarding one.
--AL
09/27

Excellent article. Jordan is very perceptive.
--
09/27

OOHH WWWAAAAAAA!!!! All of the negative things that Jordan said about herself and how people view her are true. In the BB chats, we all call her "Whoredon" SHE is the one who made a mockery out of herself, if she was soooo worried about editing, then she should should've kept her mouth shut. I have absolutely no sympathy for her, she brought it on herself, and now, to capitalize on her short-lived stinit on BB the way she has, radio DJ, and now an article, it's disgusting. No matter what she says, or tries to protray, we all know it's lies, and that all she wants is to be in the spotlight. Cry some more Whoredon, but just know that no one is listening, nor do they care.
--KLG
09/27

After reading some of the feedback on here is saddens me to think how these people thought you made the show. We see shooting in the schools, starvation in our streets, disrespect to our families, our elderly choosing between medication and food, children babysat by TV's and video games, and parents to busy to have family night at least once a week. We know why our society is like this, it's because we have raised a world of people who would rather see someone lie, be cruel and ugly to others as a form of entertainment in their ever so cold and empty lives, rather than applaud honesty, respect and kindness. Jean, you are a very transparent product of our society and I am sorry for that. You and those who thought you have everything to be proud of and did nothing wrong. Those who think prodding others with a knife of needling them in order to see them wither in pain as a form of amusement. Maybe if you lived by the saying "Do unto others as you would have them do unto you" you would see a different view of life and find some happiness. It is you that claims that you are constantly confused, it is you that finds enjoyment at being wicked, it is you that has said you were not happy with your choice of baring (naked) yourself to the world in order to fulfill a void, not the public. You are the one walking around empty, thriving on others complimenting you blackness as if it were something good. You may laugh at the last four members of the BB house, but you would be lucky that in this lifetime you can come close to the character they posess.
--CC
09/27

Jean Jordon I watched you and knew what was going on. You and the others made a mistake thinking that would be easy noe you knoe That was a lovely article and I wish you the best in life. Iam a grandmother but not a prude, You will do fine in life. I hope other people will learn from your artivle and not make the same misyakes Good LuckM
--MV
09/27

I'm actually hping that this is forwarded to Jordan. Jordan, please take it easy on yourself. I was very pleasantly surprised to see you had writen an article pertaining to BB and was pretty interested in what someone had to say...honestly...about thier "experience". I understand the points you made regarding people not being willing to engage in real conversation. Especially in the beginning, I can't imagine trying to get to know 9 strangers in a situation like that one. Let alone having everyone so on guard all of the time. I think you may have had a hard time simply because you were a little closer to real. It's just that your real happened to involve something that America (a-hem,Canada) could sink thier teeth into. You got naked for money. Whoop-de-shit. Jorda, just compare your behavior with that of the other houseguests. They were all almost virginal for the first couple of weeks asnd here you come actually speaking yur opinion, actually wanting to know which of these near-strangers that you had to LIVE WITH disliked you enough to vote you out. I'm pretty sure I would have been curious too. But, no! God forbid you have any information concerning what these people think of you. Gimmie a break. Anyway, needless to say I have been a pretty big fan. I realize you think the show sucks (understandably so). However, I 've watched it pretty faithfully and you tend to form a little attachment with characters know what I mean? Before Brittany left she was definitely my choice. Now, it really doesn't matter to me as long as it's Josh or Eddie. Eddie being first pick simply due to his medical bills and truthful, cocky attitude. (Don't you just love cocky men?) In closing Jordan, the storm in your favour seems to have subsided, and you seem to be doing well for yourself.I hope you do not misconstrue this as some strange fan letter. IT's simply a few words of insight/encouragement. I know how nice those can be to recieve sometimes. I think it would be very interesting to hear from you although I'm not even sure if you'll have thew oppurtunity to read it. If youdo, take a few minutes and mail! jaimie_leigh5@hotmail.com PS. I live in Halifax Nova-Scotia. beautiful part of Canada, really.
--jd
09/27

Recovering From Big Brother - or continuing to whallow in self pity. Jordan has so much to offer. It's frustrating and sad to realize she cannot drag herself from the ashes and be thankful for something - anything! I follow her journey with curiosity having a lot of the same 'qualities' that she has. My mental metamorphosis occurred when I realized I have much to give, much to be thankful for, and the ability to forgive those that may have planted numerous negative seeds w/in my psyche. Good luck, Jordan. Start seeking what you know is good and know that you deserve it.
--maf
09/27

Gwad, will you never change??? I watched the show both on the net and TV and you need to quit thinking that you are such a deep intellectual. You are right at the top of the list of those I see walking around thinking they know so much, yet really know so little, the ones that think they are deep, yet are so shallow. Also, one other thing that I have been wanting to say for a very long time, the audience and public never judged a dancer, they judged Jordan (aka Jean) for who you were and what you presented. You can make all the excuses in the world for behavior, blaming bad editing, playing a game (which was clear that you were not playing a game, you were being you), etc., but bottom line is we saw that you were just you, a tasteless female that begs for pity. BTW, you and you alone brought forth to the public about your dancing, then kept harping on it (claiming you were doing research for a book as a cop out for you actions) in public only to blame the public for hanging you for it. BB showed a clip of you on a radio show and I see you are still bashing the HG's, like I said, will you never change??
--CC
09/27

Jordon seems to miss the point. She was my favorite in the begining, I listened to everything she had to say. I watched the feeds with her in them, because her conversation was usually the most interesting. I even liked her profile the best during the first show. But then when she would whine to Mega about no one liking her, I was shocked! I thought they were still getting to know each other & that she was one of the popular house guests. It would also disturb me everytime she would worry about how she was edited. I was watching live feeds after all. Then she seemed to want to have it both ways. She would say provocotive statements to get attention, & then say, "but that's not really what I'm about." I began to feel manipulated by Jordon, & stopped trusting her words. Her actions were saying so much more. Brittney seemed irratating in the begining, but she stayed true to herself & was never mean spirited the way Jordon became. I watched the night Jordon forced the other HG to listen when she decided to tell her big "secret." CBS made her look so much better than she was! Then she has the nerve to say they made her look bad!! She held the HG captive moaning, complaining & arguing because they wouldn't tell her why they didn't like her. Then she tells them her "secret." It just seemed like another example of her trying to manipulate everyone into doing what she wanted. Curtis had some wonderful frank descussions with her, much like she said she wanted from everyone, & then she went crying to Jamie complaining that he had said some "ugly things to her!" He only told her the truth, it was her behavior that had been so ugly. I really do hope that Jordon will find peace & take responsibiliy for her actions instead of accussing the editing, ect. Thank You for this chance to vent about Jordon!
--JEP
09/27

I figure every person has a right to speak their mind. And I'm sure the other house guests will read this article and have something to say about it. Since I was not in the house, I can only figure that she was going thru alot of different emotional issues. Perhaps the editors portrayed you in a light that was not as fair as you wished, I hope she finds happiness in what ever she does. The only thing that I thoguht was rather a low blow to Eddie, was to mock his girl friend who is a model. Perhaps Jordan should rememeber she is also an attractive women, and she would be considered model material. If she worked to get Eddie pissed off it worked. I'm sure he wouldn't meet her for lunch.
--DAJ
09/27

it's time to just move on...
--rdg
09/27

Speaking as a female viewer, who got sucked into this odd show, felt you were the only "real" person in that "house". You have nothing to be ashamed of and should not care what other people think. It should not matter to you that others don't get it. I was dissappointed to see you go and would have liked to have gotten the chance to hear more of your thoughts and ultimately win the challenge. You, Mega, and Cassandra were the only people in there with something interesting to say. Good Luck and Much Happiness! PS: Look forward to reading your book!
--CLG
09/27

As a writer/reporter who had her integrity questioned and was vilified in front of an entire community wrongly....I commend you for your candor and well spoken words on what it is like to be in the public eye and be completely alone in the vilification process. Good luck Jordan.
--ER
09/27

Jordan was an intelligent addition to this otherwise humdrum house. I was terribly disappointed that she was voted off so quickly. She had a sense of humor, and added alot of spice to this otherwise boring show. I was sorry to see her go. Best of luck Jordan! Stay out of the sex industry and be successful in life. You will go far!
--JM
09/27

Please reassure Jordan that she didn't come across nearly as badly as she seems to feel in her article. I for one viewed her an extremely attractive accomplished young person who had done her best to liven up the show. I would hope that she finds that her new found "notoriety" will be an asset rather than a hindrance. She deserves the best of everything. Evanie
--ES
09/27

Jordan got what she deserved. She brought it all on herself. Nobody made her do anything. She is an adult and made all of her own choices. Grow up, live with it and move on. Didn't like her from first week and still don't. No personality what so ever, no anything that is impressive. Talk show host........please only men who want to get into her pants and or women who are just like her are going to even care what she has to say. Her persona is something that she created. People judge by what you give them to judge on. If she is unhappy with what she has done in her life, then I suggest that she make some changes, starting with her personality and demeanor. She comes across as one smart ass *****. Poor Britt how neive could she be to think this girl every had any real interest in her as a friend. Jordan could learn a few things from Britt...........Jordan...what a waste of time..........
--TIGG
09/27

You hit a nerve in me about the way you felt during the show, and even more so, the way you feel now. Be proud of who you are, and what you are. It's not the people of the world that make you the person you are, it's YOU! I didn't care for you on the show, but after reading this, you are a far different person than I thought. Good luck Jordan! Not everyone has bad opinions~
--jcm
09/27

Hi Jean, I was a big fan of yours on the show. I agree that the others in the house were boring and way too conscious of "cohesiveness", a Curtis word, than actually dealing with situations. When you or "Mega" tried to deal with differences between yourselves and the other houseguests, they just wanted to "do chores". I also understand dealing with certain situations in an emotional way. To me, you and Mega were the most "real" people on that supposed "reality TV". Thank you Jean P.S.- Don't worry about what anyone else thinks, no one really knows you unless "they walk a mile in your shoes".
--CEB
09/27

Jordon, I found your article very interesting. It seems that people are so brain locked these days. You made the show very interesting. I saw your attempt at trying to get intellectual conversations going... The others just didnt get it. Just didnt get you. I agree with some of the other posts when they speak about jealous women and scared men! You are an extremely cool person and I wish you the best in life... I think you need to continue writting! Keep the chin up and take care. Sherrie, 36
--st
09/27

Jordan, Your article was well written, I hope your future is bright and all that you want it to be. Best of luck in the future. The best is yet to come.
--MN
09/27

I understand how you feel and what you wrote was great! I liked your style on big brother,and what you have said.Dont waste your time thinking about the negative things people judge you on. You have SO much more positive things,going your way! I always take things others say by: If I know it's the truth,I'll let it bother me,if it's not..FORGET IT! We Dont live our lives for others, but for ourself! BE HAPPY!
--J.L
09/27

HI Jordan: I really liked you on Big Brother, I thought you were very interesting and not boring. The fact that you were a dancer didn't make me like you less. When you were banished the show got a lot more boring. I hope you get over feeling lousy for being banished so soon on BB. I'm not a young person, I'm a 62 year old women so I hope my opinion makes you feel better about yourself. As one grows older you don't let the little things bother you so much. Please stay well and keep on feeling good about yourself. Love Joanie
--JAS
09/27

And your personal naked persona is rather ordinary,not so special afterall.
--sd
09/27

Jordan, "exoskeleton" was a great choice of words, much more original than the cliche'd "thick-skin!" Good writers take chances and say "fuck you" to anyone who doesn't like it. Did you notice that the vast majority of losers on here posting spiteful comments are of the "get over it and pull yourself up by your bootstraps" mentality? That is because they are bitter and have lost the ability to feel pain or compassion for another human, or to learn from their experiences as you do. You are a beautiful, sexy woman and when you throw intelligence into that mix, the jealous trolls are bound to come crawling out of the woodwork to stab at you. Despite the radically puritanical element, OWN YOUR SEXUALITY. Investigate Annie Sprinkle and see how they worship her as a goddess of sexual arts. Were you a bitch to Josh & Brit? I think all you did was expose Brit for being whiny and neurotic. But if you want to be a bitch, be one! You gave us all a few laughs and were the only highlight of an otherwise dreadfully boring show. Your friend, DD (fubu)
--
09/27

Jordan, You are a great person! That was a well-written essay. You are very intelligent, and you added a spark to Big Brother. My favorite moment was when you and Brittany were laughing & talking about Josh when he was asleep on the couch. It was so funny! I know you will go far in life, and will be a success! Remember to be strong and to never let the naysayers get to you! You are a beautiful, wonderful, talented human being!
--PR
09/27

Amazing! Jean, continue to write. I am amazed by the response to your article. Positives, negatives, good advice, superficial criticism, it's all there. This should tell you that you can touch a chord in people and isn't that what writing is all about? Read the messages and learn from the ones that seem true to you; trust your instincts. Don't forget to be gentle with yourself too, then gentleness with others will come. Good luck!!
--seh
09/27

Good article, Jordan and good luck to you. Don't sweat the hate from your detractors, they fall into two camps: women who are jealous of you, and men who are afraid of you. The people who became obsessed with 'Big Brother', and who took it much too seriously, did so because they have unsatisfying lives of their own. Basically, they're losers.
--CH
09/27

Saw your segment on BB the other night. Concerning your experience, It's "bizarre" not "bazaar". Spell checkers are wonderful things. Then again so is talent, but that's a little out of you reach.
--SS
09/27

Of all the SHIT that goes down in this world everyday, THIS is what bothers you? Grow the fuck up! You had your 15 minutes, it didn't pan out, bla-bla-bla. Life goes on, so should you. ..and I won't EVEN bring up the number of glaring errors in your little "essay".
--RT
09/27

I was really excited to see how Jordan would see herself in a new light, develop a new understanding, and create a new path for her life after her banishment. I wasn't a fan of Jordan's but I still felt that she was a good person... just misguided. Seems like her kharma is still haunting her and so she still is misguided. One day she will figure it out, it's just sad that she won't find out for a long time. If Jordan is reading this... You are a beautiful person inside and out. Take the time to see... It's frustrating that you can't see it and it's hurting you. Peace
--star
09/27

Nice article. You've made some considerable progress since getting tangled up in that ugly verbal slugfest over at the Star Tribune site last month. That standout quote at the bottom of the article -- the one about growing an exoskeleton? That's possibly the best thing you can do. Best of luck, and I'm still looking forward to reading your book! -- Dan B.
--db
09/27

blah blah blah.......sounds like you are just looking for more attention.
--TVB
09/27

Oh brother.........
--PR
09/27

Wow That was great Jordan, You expressed yourself so well. I was hanging on every word, You have a future in writing. girl you are talented, Write a book, sitcom, play.
--AS
09/27

jordan, nicely written, i must agree..too bad it is all bull, no offense. i just think that you (by watching the live feeds of yourself in the bb house) felt embarrassed of the way you appeared on t.v.,and now want to make people think that it was all an act to spice the house up, cause even though you say you don't care what people think, writting this article has proven that wrong, you totally want people to like you and think of you as a victim, maybe you aren't really like this, maybe you were really trying to spice up the house..but girl let me tell you, you looked so bad, i mean saying that your sex drive was in need and stuff like that,in one month????come on you looked like such a horny slut, and after that, you blurt out you were a stripper??? oh yeah i forgot it was to spice the bb house up right?? lol whatever...whatever...go on with your life and luck to you, and don't ever try to spice things up that way it will get you nowhere...
--epfm
09/27

Dear Jordan, Thanks for being such a breath of fresh air on my tv. A real live human being, and not a script in sight. Whew. No wonder you got booted. People aren't used to seeing such things. The only thing I'd regret if I were you was going in that house in the first place. Otherwise, you have nothing to apologize for or explain to anyone. Internet posters? Notoriously obsessive, and prone to changing their minds at the least provocation. Didn't they all love George to death awhile back? That was before they hated him. Pay no attention to all that stuff. In fact, if you were still on the show now, I bet you'd be seen in an entirely different way.
--EY
09/27

jordan as a mom of two daughters, ages 23 and 25, i just want to tell you that your personality was not lost on everyone. my oldest daughter has a degree in women's studies and works in her field. my youngest daughter is working in the film industry as a wardrobe stylist with aspirations of screen writing. of all the women in the house you were the only one who seemed genuine and intelligent. it was never my impression that you were a stripper because you had a bimbo mentality. i felt certain that you did it to gain a different perspective. not that is should be analyzing you or your motives... i just felt bad that you were thrown to the wolves on big brother. anyway, i think the right people get you and the others, well maybe you should be happy that they don't. good luck to you. you are an adorable girl and i'm sure your mom is as proud of you as i am of my two girls.
--mr
09/27

Jordan, I thought you were great; you tried to stir up a little controversy to get those boring people to react. They didn't. No one would dare to have a deep conversation in those early stages. I really didn't like Mega, but I loved how you and he could talk and have fun. I'm sorry you've had to go thru all you have gone through but I hope it's made you a stronger person. And, I really liked you and Josh and was hoping something would happen!! Britt was very jealous of you and she had every right to be!! You're a bright, beautiful girl and I know you will succeed incredibly in whatever you do! Take care and Good Luck!!!
--RAA
09/27

Jordan, I loved every word you wrote. I understand your feelings far to well. I have to tell you who I am, and then tell you how I fell. I am Joshua Souza's Aunt, from the Big Brother show. And I have to tell you Jordan, you and my Nephew, were the best person on that show. I was so sorry to see you go. I loved the fact that you were just yourself, Up front and to the point. I only wish the best for you. My email address is MyPinky33@aol.com. Should you ever need to talk.
--S T
09/27

I hope you can make SOMETHING of yourself.
--cc
09/27

I can see how this would be a negitive experence for you. You were basicly shut out by the rest of the house guests because you were not SAFE. I think most of the viewers are wondering what's up with these people? I think you should consider yourself lucky to have been banished early because anyone still in the house is well beyond repair. You will be able to live a normal life, they won't, you should thank the viewers. Good luck to you.
--ch
09/27

Great article!!! Well written and very entertaining and thought provoking. But I've always been in "Jordan's" corner. You have it all going for you now. Take it and run with it.
--VL
09/27

Jordan, it's so cliche yet very appropriate...simply, get over it. Stop whining, lift your chin up, and keep moving forward. Life is a gift, enjoy! Best wishes.
--IS
09/27

jordan, quit your whining bitching attitude! Last week CBS showed a clip of your new job. and, the way you rolled your eyes listening to the current houseguests sing THEIR theme song. I couln't help but see that once again you felt alone. shut out as you would say. And, why wouldn't you? I think that you bring on your own missery. Face it, the only thing you had going for you in that house was your sex appeal. too bad you didn't last long enough to get wrapped around Josh. As for that B/F of yours!!?!? WHAT is up with THAT? I don't see how for one minute he could understand what kind of "sexual needs" you might have had in less than a month! Are you that shallow that you need sexual contact in such a short time? Maybe you should stick to stripping. If you show no feeling.. then you never get your feelings hurt.
--je
09/27

JORDAN YOU'VE GOT A LOT OF COURAGE TO HAVE DONE WHAT YOU'VE DONE IN YOUR LIFE. MAKE THE BEST OF WHAT YOU HAVE IN YOURLIFE. GOOD LUCK IN THE FUTURE TO YOU.
--ALG
09/27

I only watched the first episode of BIG BROTHER and found most of the cast so dull and the format so creepy I never tuned in again. There were two people however I thought deserved a better showcase - Eddie and Jordan - two extraordinary individuals. I don't even know who is left in the house, but I can surmise that without Jordan it has to be mighty uninteresting. Jordan, there is no doubt in my mind that you are more articulate, more aware, and a more intriguing individual than most of lifeless folks who voted you out.
--dr
09/27

Jordan, let me first just say that I was never your biggest fan. What I thought isn't really important anymore. What I think now is that you have a lot of potential to be who ever it is that you want to be. But you need to make up your mind who Jordan is. It seems like you are unsure of yourself and that is not uncommon for a woman your age, especially one who has worked as a stripper. I think that line of work causes confusion as to who one really is. I don't think that you are a bad person because you were a dancer. It probably wasn't the best choice for your own sake and mental well-being, but it isn't the worst thing you could have done, by any means. What I would really like is to see you learn from that experience, as well as the BB experience. I know it hurts to read criticism. It is so difficult to take a good honest look at who you are, imperfections and all. Many people go their entire lives without ever doing this. You have a great opportunity to make the best of that. But, don't try to prove to everyone that you are better than anyone else. Just step down to our level. Humility is a tough lesson but well worth the price. The only real advice that I have to offer is to figure out who you are and be that. Don't worry so much about what every one else expects or thinks. Yes we all saw you, but not really. We didn't see anything about you that you didn't show us. We still cannot see right through you. We don't really know who or what is inside of Jordan. From here on out, we will only know what you tell us. Don't be concerned about what you think we want you to be. Just tell us who you are and then show us. Be certain that your words match your actions. It is all really very simple, but people will respect you more just for being yourself. As far as anything else, be honest with yourself. Don't try to run and hide from your faults. Accept them. We all have them. No biggie. You are a beautiful woman. You are strong and intelligent. You feel and that makes you real. Don't let anyone tell you any different. Rooty216@aol.com
--cem
09/27

Jordon definitely has a good mind, and her writing was good. Rock on Girl!
--VT
09/27

Good for you Jordan for the article and naked,pardon the pun, truth about what you are feeling. I can respect that a lot more than someone like Jamie that seems to be in denial about how the majority of the viewers feel about her . She is so totaly fake an hasnt a clue. I have made many bad decisions in my life also, but to quote ol' blue eyes, I did it my way, an I'll deal with that. I have been called a survivor more times than one, meaning somewhat a bitch. So be it, I know I have a good heart, and that's what counts. Be good to yourself and the ones you hold dear to you and you will be fine.
--MAB
09/27

Good stuff Jordon. You're a great writer. Take care
--jd
09/27

good article! Jordan is very brave and honest and it is refreshing.
--lp
09/27

Jordan it surprises me what the people see and they do not get that CBS/bb is controlling how they think. The people are in love with Eddie and that scare me. I wish George and Casandra would write the truth. Don't worry about Britt, I'm sure she moans everytime she loses her cherry. lol
--bjs
09/27

Jorden, I didn't like you on b.b. your were a wessel, snicky, under handed and how you came between Brittney and Josh was mean! It will come back to you! What you did will come back 3 times over on you!
--
09/26

'maybe i need to grow an exoskeleton and tell everybody to fuck off' that's good writing. i started reading some of the feedback and was amazed at some of the people who took so much time to dissect what they thought they knew of jordan. anybody who takes a full page to tell jordan how bitter they think she is is living in projection city. jeez.... i just wanted to write a bit more when i saw some of the effusively nasty comments written about jordan's writing. it makes me feel like saying, hey people, don't hate her because she's cute, hate her because she's smart. why is it so easy for people to forget that this is the lady who beat curtis at chess? keep writing jordan. you've got a voice and people are listening. diana lyster a/k/a satispassion a/k/a vermin
--dl
09/26

Boy, some things never change. You did'nt learn anything did you Jordan. Yes I have to say , you and William are 2 peas in a pod. We the public weeded the bad seeds out. Are you trying to say that the whole veiwing audiance are wrong and you are right, William said the same thing. You and William have to get over your self importance, it's old. And by the way Fuck You Too!
--H.P.
09/26

it was interesting to read the words of the real jordan. i have a close friend who was a dancer; she quit when she said she was having 'homicidal fantasies about the customers.' and, with jordan, there is so much more brain and substance the the big brother show consistently missed. it's a shame that she's not still in the house. she is so much more likeable than dumb and phony jamie. diana lyster
--dl
09/26

Jordan was my favorite of all the house guests on Big Brother, the one I felt had most to say. She was someone I'd love to know and talk to, the one with the deepest thoughts and the most interesting mind. How I wish I could tell her myself how I cried the night she was banished. If she wishes to contact me, I'd love to hear from her and tell her these things myself. My address is Darlene133@hotmail.com. Thanks, Darlene
--DW
09/26

Jordan, I appreciate your honesty in writing about your experience on Big Brother. I think I can really relate to where you are coming from. Maybe I'm totally off base, but I think you have a strong ambivalence about being a dancer because you know certain people who mean a lot to you might condemn such behavior as being trashy, slutty, lascivious, utterly blasphemous. In a way, you seem to enjoy the thrill of being appreciated for your special feminine qualities while feeling that somehow the path you've taken to become aware of your sensuous and/or sensual nature has been misguided and in your perception has marked you as "bad" or like the fallen angel that is the personification of the demon of the deep. In a way maybe you have condemned yourself. I don't know what it would take to get you to know that you can be redeemed and I don't mean to preach. I do, however, believe that if you want to be the antithesis of whatever negative image you feel has befallen your moment of fame, that all you have to do is be true to yourself. Don't talk about the past. Don't dwell on the past. You'll have more than enough opportunity to do so when others who do that will bring up a subject and question you. Just let your integrity show and let everyone see the beautiful and fun person you are. Your style works fine. Just always stand on your own convictions and let others worry about their own souls, or character flaws or rough edges. Just my opinion, but I say, you go girl! You've got the world by the tail. Enjoy
--GWS
09/26

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--jkn
09/26

Dear Jordan... Too bad you had so many issues to resolve before throwing yourself into this show and the public arena. The mass media is exploitative and it was naive of you to think it was going to be anything but. You went from one exploitative situation to another.{your stripping incident to bb) Furthermore, to tell all America before even revealing to your family was a blind mistake. If you can't face your past you have no choice then to either hide it... or face it. The media did latch on to that bigtime. It was obviously your vulnerability. Like they say... never reveal what your weaknesses are. Otherwise people will take advantage of them. I dont think your stripping is anything to be ashamed of. So the media latched on to it... who cares. grow through this and quit whining. Furthermore, its funny you cracked so early in the show. you were barely there 2 weeks and you couldnt cope. Your past. The people around you. Your perception about what so called people thought about you. Real or imagined. You carried this HUGE baggage in with you on show and you carried right out. You now have the opportunity to use this all to your advantage. Do you even realize? Finally, Big Brothers "portrayal of you was right on" So it was only a glimpse. The viewers are not that ignorant to realize that it was only a small fraction of who you are. Your actions were clear. If you were so worried about how you were going to be portrayed. Then you should have remained more focused and in control.
--RR
09/26

Jordan, STFU.
--SaS
09/26

Jordan-- I would like to compliment you on your writing; and definitely the attitude I see projected by it. It is too bad that the image edited and displayed by Big Brother perhaps wasn't how it should have been for us to conceive the right idea of you, but then that probably counldn't have been expected anyway; as is true with any kind of putty the media are allowed to mold. Good luck in your recovery. It is wonderful to see such a strong and positive attitude among us. Best regards, Rachel
--R.B.
09/26

It was downright horseshit when Jordan was voted out of the house. The american public consists of puritan idiots. I was pissed when Jordan was kicked out. And now just look at the show, without her it sucks.
--JAL
09/26

i simpathize with Jordan! She went in as what she thoght she was and came out with who she really was.And i applaud her for that strentgh!
--tg
09/26

I think Jordan has a HUGELY inflated sense of self. Once she relaxes and realizes not that many people are paying attention to her will she be more bearable. Also, I think she meant she need to grow thick skin rather than an exoskeleton.
--
09/26

Jordon, You can't even write poor "cheap trash novels"...think about going back to stripping, at least there you will eat well.....
--R.M.
09/26

This was not written by me...I'm not this clever, but here's to you Jordan, from all of us at BBblows "What a total lack of perspective..." *ahem*... since Jordan reads the internet... here's a combo open-letter/commentary. ;) I don't know what's more amazing about the boy-faced sack-of-fuck that is Jordan: the fact that she thinks she's interesting (you all say that Cassandra was the most boring person on that show, but to me it was always Jordan, hands down) or that she thinks she can write. That article she wrote was the most pathetic, pretentious, assuming-anybody-gives-a-lefthanded-fuck piece of "writing" I've seen in a while. It wasn't writing - it was typing. "What I Did On My Summer Vacation" C+ pretty much covers it. I'm sick of hearing about her life in the "sex industry." She wasn't in the sex industry - she was a low-rent stripper, and that's all she was. In the sex-industry food chain, that's not even plankton. That isn't interesting, it isn't an achievement, it's a McDonald's job where you don't have to wear a shirt and that's about it. It's only fascinating to people like David Letterman, who probably didn't get to look at Playboy in their growing years and are now porn-addicted 'cuz it's still a novelty to 'em that women have breasts. Jordan has this whole "America was obsessed with me because I was a stripper" thing pressed to the firewall - it was never that big a damn deal. People just latched onto that because it was the only thing even remotely out of the ordinary about this guy... and I say guy because Jordan isn't even a woman to me, she's a guy who needs to grow a beard to set off the long hair. She's the fourth member of Hanson. She's the kid who sang for Silverchair, but without the talent. She harps on it because it got a reaction, the same way a three-year old will repeat the same antic a thousand times if you made the mistake of laughing at it once. "I had become America's newest vixen"... only in the sense that a vixen is a member of the canine family, J. You're about as sexy as chewed-up food. It's ironic that you're in radio now, because I'm in radio, and I used to work with a kid who was a dead ringer for you - a guy named Scott. Looked *exactly* like you. And he was self-obsessed, too. People who take "self-discovery" trips are generally without substance. People who overuse words like "empowering" usually need to go ahead and die. Becoming a corpse would be empowering. "the people there seemed boring to me: they wanted to play cards and do chores, not have candid talks." They did have talks, Jordan. Why don't you say what you mean? You wanted them to talk about you and be fascinated with you. And you're bitching that they weren't. That's your fault, Jordan, not theirs. You are simply not interesting. This is not a crime, but I've gotten fed up with all your whining about it. You weren't interested in what anyone else had to say, because it wasn't about you. And, oh yeah, don't think I forgot that bit where you complained that everyone was going to Cassandra for advice and not you, when you felt you had "wisdom to impart." Everyone feels they have wisdom to impart, but the people who actually have it are usually the ones people seek out. You get advice from someone who seems to have their shit together - you don't ask advice from an obvious loser. And that's why nobody consulted you. They didn't want to end up where you are. Cassandra, on the other hand, had qualities that anybody could learn from. "If there weren't going to be "deep talks," I might as well be entertaining � sexy and provocative." You aren't capable of being either, boy. "Was I really nothing but a stripper?" Boy, you ain't even that. Knock "but a stripper" off that question and you'll have your truth. I could honestly care less if you were a stripper or not. It's a job. People are not their jobs. Not the best job in the world, true, but it's legal and I wouldn't knock anybody for trying to make an honest living. The stripper-thing isn't even an issue. It's not interesting. "But some days, I feel naked in front of a nation of people, as if they are all pointing and whispering behind my back." So fade into the shadows, J... I'll be glad to forget about you if you'll just get out of the spotlight. Trust me - not that many people are looking at you. What's worse - thinking they're looking... or realizing they aren't? Pull a big fade, go back to obscurity. Nobody's stoppin' ya. "Some days, I feel weak and depressed." So kill yourself, or take Prozac, get hooked on smack, or whatever. The cracks are there - fall through 'em. Deal with it. "Maybe I just care way too much about what people think of me;" Yeah, and maybe you're obsessed with it. Maybe you crave people having an opinion of you, when to most you're just a face in the crowd. "maybe I need to grow an exoskeleton and tell everyone to fuck off." Do it, Hollywood Junior, do it. I'd be happy if you told me and everybody else to fuck off... maybe then you'd be satisfied and just disappear again. I sincerely wish you luck with the exoskeleton, because I'm tired of ya. "I never had an issue with being physically naked before. But now I am personally naked. And it is the worst feeling I could ever imagine. " And that's why you write things like this, revealing all your feelings, because you want to dwell in the worst feeling you could ever imagine? Puh-leeze. You're eating up the attention with a spoon in each hand and crying because you don't have extra hands so you could hold more spoons. If that wasn't the case, you'd pull a fade and stop this charade of "poor me, I got what I wanted but I didn't get enough of it. Poor me, everybody's looking at me. Poor me, nobody realizes my sexy provacativeness and great depth." Can't recognize what ain't there, kid. A glass of water is a glass of water. Ain't nothin' wrong with a glass of water, but when it complains that nobody's mistaking it for champagne, that's when things get annyoing. So, fuck you, Jordan. Fuck you hard. And if you happen to see Mega, fuck him, too. Nobody else on the show - not even Karen - has been such whiners about the whole thing. Nobody else - not even Jamie - have been so incredibly hyper-narcissistic. I'm glad you two were the first ones out, because, even though I don't like much of anybody in that house, you two were the only ones that I truly and completely despised. Go back to your mirror. Con mucho vitriol,
--TBS
09/26

Excellent writing - Jean should pursue writing as a career - she's intelligent, articulate and no more screwed up than anyone else who views and experiences life without the shallowness of 90% of the population.
--sc
09/26

Jordan It's okay. I watched the show feveriously the weeks you were on, both online feed and regular show. I also spend a lot of time on the boards talking about the show. Everybody in that house has created what I can only describe as hate responses from somebody or other. Like their life is flawless but when they see yours under the microscope they let loose. It's all just judgemental gobblety-gook to me. However, there are some posters who, even recently, have come to your defense. Check the password message board on forumnuniverse.com. You'll find an elegant post positively supporting you. I'm really tired of the bashing the houseguests receive all over, but especially on the boards. I often defend the houseguests even if I don't like what they've done. You were all just people to me and should not have come under such negative scrutiny from jerks whose life is so poor they must bash a stranger. Sure, it's their right, but you don't have to buy into it. My heart went out to you on the show, especially after will left. It looked like you were all alone in there. Remember, some of us saw and understand. The rest can go around and pick all the nits they want. Let them be less for it, for you are not.
--rld
09/26

JBJ-- It was interesting to see what was going through your mind on Big Brother, but I question the way you go about expressing it. Be yourself-- don't try to convince people you're an intellectual by looking up words in the thesaurus. People will be more fascinated by your thoughts if you convey them as YOU would in normal conversation. When you use words that "don't quite fit", it becomes obvious that you recently looked them up in order to use them. That's distracting. I applaud your efforts to better yourself and your vocabulary, but that has to come with time. Read a lot of books, watch a lot of "high brow" television, and pick up words as you go. If you try to fake your way through it, your book is going to be one-dimensional and pretentious. You've been through a lot, and people will be interested in what you have to say. However, without proper writing, they won't ever see past "Jordan the Stripper". As for the Big Brother situation, I've got a whole other opinion on that. I'll save it for a rainy day. - espion@graffiti.net
--LT
09/26

Making your own comments on replies is a good suggestion, but only if you think them through carefully. Real people have sent you their thoughts you must value those thoughts to get the full benefit. Avoid the instant reaction, and do not go for the cheap shot.
--RH
09/26

Jean, Any chance that you might enter your responses to these replies, and get a real in-depth dialog going? I'm not being funny here, I think it would be extremely helpful to do this.
--BH
09/26

Sounds as though we're a little disappointed that the others weren't absolutely shocked to hear that you'd been a stripper. I personally would expect the same reaction if I should tell my friends the same thing. I't the 21st Century, Jordan, who cares, other than the guys who feel obligated to make the locker room talk?
--NC
09/26

Most of us see in-depth talks as a means to deal with controversy; misunderstandings; or just sounding out ones feelings, perhaps to resolve those mixed emotions. But we don't usually see the talks as an end in themselves, just as a tool to a greater purpose. Hopefully, most of us aren't tormented at all times, so aren't really can't get involved in spur-of-the-moment deep discussions, the need usually arrives first. Continual soul searching just isn't appropriate. You need to become much more objective, and much more open and accepting of the emotions of other people. If you don't really like them, move on to people with whom you have more in common, understanding that nobody's right or wrong, just different. And different is OK, don't criticize on that basis only. Also, you've adulterated your main premise in your article by losing focus here and there, and overstating your arguments. Use an outline in future writings, pare supporting details down, and don't repeat those details over and over.
--E.C.
09/26

Dear Jordan, Some persons enjoyed your stay on BB. Most of those who axed you were young people, really young people. Check the boards, they mimic one another. You're young and have a lot of growing to do. You'll look back on this experience years from now and laugh. We liked you. Just one thing iritated us. It was your alliance with Will. When we saw him on ABC news next to Khalid, a vicious racist, something you had no knowledge of, it made people angry. They got rid of him first, and you, by association next. On your writing, you're talented, but get rid of all the adverbs. You don't need so many. But you do have alot to say and will learn how to say it. You've found a good way to start on the internet, and someone will soon pick you up - book people, agents, whoever, and give you a hand. Best of luck to you. Take it easy on yourself, life is short. From someone whose been there and back and ready to go there again. Lennora
--l n
09/26

Jordan, Well put. Most of us don't care that you were a stripper, that WAS your life. Your life now is what you decide to make of it. Maybe your stripping on the outside was to prepare you for the stripping on the inside you are feeling now. You've truly been exposed, and maybe you've learned an incredible lesson for yourself. Best of life to you.
--MLF
09/26

Dear Jordan, I just finished your essay and feel very moved. Your gut-wrenching honesty is a gift to the reader. I knew when you left that the show was lost. Clearly, you were the only one with any soul. I admired your bravery in revealing your feelings on the show and found just when I was thinking something, it would be you who uttered it. Despite the bad editing, you came accross as a "whole" person; bright, funny, warm... with a compelling charm. I'll be looking for you in the future as I'm positive the radio show is only a stepping stone. Sincerly, Susan
--SZ
09/26

Jordan - what a fabulous writer you are! Bright, articulate, educated persons (not just females!) who are not afraid to express their opinions are often disliked. The attacks usually stem from jealousy. I guess we just have to get used to it. Don't let it bother you so much! And you must certainly not let such negativity stifle your achievments! Have you thought about law school? I am a recent law graduate myself, and I really think that you would excel. But with the "big bucks" you must be making now, why bother right? Again, enjoyed your article.
--MDL
09/26

While the article isn't badly written, it sounds like the author is still bitter and still looking to blame someone. She does not seem to be at peace with anything, least of all herself. I don't doubt that something about BB really got under Jean Jordan's skin, but it's herself she should be looking at, not others. She seems to think she is looking inside herself but all we see/hear/read is how she was perceived by others. She seems to seek out these "self-discovery" trips yet it leaves her more lost. It's a shame, since she must have more to offer the world besides this bitterness. I wonder what she was like before stripping. Her cynical streak seems natural (and very funny), but she seemed to use it as an excuse to keep people at an emotional distance. The way that she would purposely distance herself from the other houseguests in any way possible was interesting. It's as if she'd rather reject first in case she was rejected, as if she was too afraid to like anyone lest she be hurt. In a way, Jean, and Jamie are alike - too self-absorbed for their own good and too afraid of being disliked. Yet they aren't evil, nasty people, they're just not honest with themselves. Of course, I don't know these folks, it's just my opinion, so take everything with a bucket of salt.
--amc
09/26

Jesus fuck, there are Vietnam vets who don't whine and bitch about their experiences like you do. Get over it. You voluntarily entered a house with people who weren't fascinated with your boring little stories about being a stripper like you hoped they would. That's essentially what happened. Nothing more. You didn't do anything significant or worthwhile so stop whining from your soapbox that you have something to offer to the world because you sure as hell don't. You like to believe you're an emotionally strong person and the other houseguests are the screwups but you're the one who broke down, didn't you? While most of the other houseguest managed to cope with being separated from friends and family, and living with complete strangers, you sobbed and bitched yourself into an early banishment. Your excuse that being separated from your support group is pathetic. Only whiny little babies need to be continually coddled and reassured by their enablers. Stop kidding yourself. You ain't nothing but loser. You'll be convinced soon enough when you discover publishers don't want to waste a red cent publishing your tripe.
--ks
09/26

We though Jean "Viper" Jordan already had an exoskeleton, and it was the viewers who told her to "Fuck Off".
--XTC
09/26

Dear Jordan, I hope you recover from the Big Brother experience with your self-esteem intact. I was very sorry to see you leave, and was rooting for you all the way. Don't worry about the criticism, as many of those who watch have no lives of their own, and the only power they can wield is with their keyboards. Just look at the horrible stuff which is being written now about Jamie, another girl who doesn't deserve it, yet Eddie can do no wrong-he gets praise for doing what others are criticised for. I'm a 55 year old grandmother, not a teenage boy, and I recognised in you many another young woman trying to find herself in the world, so walk tall and be proud. As a woman with an education, and experience, I also recognise that you have writing talents, from your essay, so focus on your abilities and achievements, and don't let the Big Brother experience keep you down. You learned from it, and that's a good thing. That's what life is all about, a series of events from which we derive self-knowledge. I wish you the very best of luck, and believe me, I missed you when you were gone from the BB house. They could use you right now! The last week is booooring! Good luck :-)
--RBH
09/26

I had to write again, because I find it sad that some people can't offer constructive criticism without resorting to name-calling..EXTREMELY SAD..Some of you guys need to get a life.
--AER
09/26

Amazing tale from my old favourite BB HG..No one can tell it quite like Jordan.
--AER
09/26

Jordan: After slowly and carefully walking on a bed of hot coals,... some people are stronger for the experience :) Know thy self,... and the rest of the world won't bother you so much. --D'Arcy, A Serious George Fan d_a_emery@yahoo.com http://www.aplusadmiralty.com/george
--DAE
09/26

Sounds like you failed to consider that CBS was going to exploit you for all that you were worth. Of course they didn't show the 99% boring (average) part of you, they had 8 others who were 100% boring! Anyone who voluntarily puts themselves on this type of show should expect to be raked over the coals. My god, tabloids have been doing this for years! It sounds like your personal guilt over having been in the "entertainment industry" is something that only you can resolve internally. Then you truly won't care what others think.
--DG
09/26

Jordan, you really need to quit blaming everything on outside forces and accept that it was your bad behavior and not the "editing" that made you out to be the villain. You sat in the red room and BRAGGED about how you were manipulating Josh and Brittany. Is that something *nice* people do? I don't care if you did it because you were bored or to spice things up. If you had done that to me IRL, I would have hated you, and that is why the public generally DOES despise you. You remind me so much of an EX-friend I had who was alos a stripper. Maybe the industry teaches people that emotions don't matter... yours or anyone else's... that it's ok to lie, cheat, and scheme to get what you want. That's not how sosciety sees it, babe. People who willingly and cavalierly hurt others are seen as assholes, and that means you.
--LMM
09/26

I just wanted to say, I loved the article...Jordan, we love you here in N. California ! debra@syix.com
--DH
09/26

Jordan - Great essay! You were one of my favorites and should be proud of yourself for your journey and public revelations!! You go Girl!!
--LRR
09/26

Jordan, I had to write to you again.I am the one with M.S. My last post i ran out of room. I just wanted to say i love your book so far. I can't wait to read the rest of it. You have a good heart and soul. You are smart too. You will go a long ways in life, if you use it right. I wish you would get in to acting. I think you would be great at it. I wish you the best in what ever you do. You are the best. Just remember you have a good heart. I saw it on the show. Don't listen to the bad post you get from some people.You made the show good and i missed you alot when you left.Will you please drop me a line.With being sick i don't get out much. So i am on the internet a lot. You would make my day and days to come so happy if you did. You are a great person :) swanangel2000@webtv.net
--JDW
09/26

You certainly derived enormous insight from being in the house what was it...? Three weeks? I can only wonder how long you'll continue to play the victim instead of using your experiences to actually discover things about yourself, and then work on them.
--AS
09/26

This is a horribly written banal piece of shit. Tell Jordan to get a life.
--rcs
09/26

Jordan,i have been wishing i could write to you. My wish came true. You were wonderful on bb.You have a good sence of humor, you are sexy and pretty. I couldn't believe you got voted out. I wonder if people out there are crazy. Why would they vote you out. So what you played a few head games.You ment no harm to anyone. You were trying to make bb better, and you did. Jordan, you have the looks and the body. If you can use your looks and body to get what you want in life, go for it. I use to be pretty and have a good figure. Then 4yrs ago, i found out i have multiple sclerosis. I started losing my looks and figure about a year later. I can barely move, so i have put on weight,my face started getting deformed. What i am saying some day it could be taken away from you.be proud of who you are
--JDW
09/26

I hope Jordan gets to read this. I was never a fan of hers and it had nothing to do with stripping, but I want to let her know that her essay was excellent. If this is an example of her writing skills, than her book should be successful. It was interesting and engaging!
--DG
09/26

Why scream "Poor me, poor me"? You made each decision yourself and you HAD TO KNOW how the general public and the houseguests were going to view you. In a sense, you were just 'acting for the camera's' the same way Jamie is. Jordan, I can't imagine how you could put the 'slant' of your protrayal on CBS. We watched you on live feed and you came across even worse than CBS ever thought of putting up on your banishment. I believe you when you say that you've had it with the stripper thing...Good! That is a start. But to continue to cry wolf, and say that BBrother was so bad, only makes you look more stupid than ever! If BBrother was so bad, why are you using it to further your, eh em career, by continually using BB as the your bacon? Why not drop it like a bad habit and go out and do something rewarding. The radio show, one hour a week and writing this kind of garbage only proves all to well that you think you still have to use BB's coat hems to do anything what? worthwhile? You can't scream foul one minute and then turn around and use them when it's to your advantage the next. It definitely shows that you just aren't as intelligent as you claim to be. Forget BB and try to do something positive in your life. You are young enough to make better choices in your life. Now only if you actually will!
--vsf
09/26

Good for you Jordan. I always thought you were the most realistic of all the "characters" in the house. And that audition tape to get back in, just playing with the houseguests' fake idea of celebrity was very funny. Daniel
--dw
09/26

sounds like someone is a little bitter. get over it and get a life, or a job or something. all we ever hear is "stripper, stripper, stripper" and the only person we keep hearing it from is jordan. so quit complaining and move on.
--sg
09/26

Could Jordan from Big Brother be any more of a pathetic loser. God why dont you cry about it you no talent. Or no why dont you go write that book about the stripping industry you emptily promised. Grow up get a life
--TD
09/26

It's clear that "Big Brother" was not televised entertainment - it was a sadistic carnival freak show that represents something close to an end point to modern culture. Our cultural and personal subjective interiority, our "inner lives" are being slowly stolen by the obscenity of everything inside us being made visible. Because of Springer, Oprah, reality shows and even more positive advancements like A.A. and the growing acceptance of psychotherapy (and resultant endless discussions regarding such), we all as individuals have to struggle to maintain any interior experience at all. Art used to gently penetrate repression; we could all feel united by the artist's expression of an uncomfortable interior mutual feeling or idea. Now there is no repression left, there is in fact no inside left to expose. Even Nerve, which I enjoy, contributes to the relentless stripping away of what is secret and individual. What did it feel like to have secrets? Will we ever know again?
--Tao
09/26

Jordan, you remind me so much of my roommate in college--who also worked as a stripper for a few years. She, like you, is smart, sensitive, ambitious and insecure on many levels (aren't we all?). I watched her go through some really hard times and experiences. I think you are on the right track with your thinking and reflection. Keep going and keep writing. You have a lot of time to figure all of this out. It may sound like a cliche, but you can't look outside yourself for affirmation. Looking outside yourself for affirmation of a surface quality like "beauty" or "sexiness" is an even more slippery slope. Build yourself up inside and then you'll be able command the respect you crave. Other people (and society in general) will bait you into thinking that your looks are what matter most--don't let them. This is a way to discredit the real, powerful YOU. Just look at the show--they latched onto every moment where you talked about your looks or sex appeal and completely ignored your attempts to engage the vapid hamsters into meaningful dialog. I'm not saying this is fair, but unfortunately it is reality (whatever that means). You can combat this by NOT talking or focusing on the way you look. I'm not saying that you have to dress in a sackcloth or not enjoy your body. I'm just saying that you can shift the focus away from it when talking to people that you want to impress with your thoughts. I think you'll find that people will begin to take you more seriously and you'll question yourself less. In any case, from what I saw, I didn't find you to be a self-absorbed basketcase. You strike me as the sanest person in the house, because you were able to show a full range of emotions and experiences--the others just completly shut-down. If there is anyone people should worry about in the BB house, it's Jamie--now she really needs some serious work! Peace...
--MC
09/26

Jean, Good article. I never saw you as a villian on the show. Don't try to make too much out of the way people respond to your TV experience. TV is forgottn very quickly. The only person that should approve of you is you. I hope you have much love and sucess in life.
--DMS
09/26

The story here is pretty straightforward, well-put, and even compelling, though I certainly voted "off with her head!" along with the rest - and meant it. The one thing I always do wonder about, though, whenever I see someone have a defensive meltdown, is the extent to which they realize later, how they shot themselves in the foot - and that remains unanswered for me. I have now seen a number of the Big Brother houseguests go through it - I think of it as "marked fever" - responding to the nominations by behaving as badly and moaning & wailing as loudly as possible, making it impossible for anyone to choose to keep them. I think it's an interesting study in human behavior still. And thanks to Jordan for delineating some of the experience.
--AUS
09/26

Jordan, don't take the internet message boards to heart! No one will find the answer to life written by petty and insecure posters hiding behind av alias. You are one vibrant, interesting and intelligent person who dared to try and you will survive. It was our pleasure to meet you on BB. SurvivorBBFan@aol.com
--bb
09/26

Hey Jordan! You're my hero. Please never regret living every minute of your life. You are better than the BB show, which was meant only to be a boring version of Make A Wish Foundation. BB preselected a winner by finding someone, anyone who survived cancer 10 years ago. Perhaps BB2 will be one long nap by 10 needy homeless and dying hamsters? Between the editing, inane voting, and BB's favorite hamsters, the most interesting and vibrant house guests and viewers never had a chance. Models do suck!
--cj
09/26

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