My First Time

Female • 17 years old • Mobile, AL

I grew up in a place where sex was rarely discussed. In southern Alabama, schools teach abstinence. Sex is learned through whispered words between schoolmates, or worse, from your parents at the dinner table.

I was fourteen when I first met him in Algebra class. His backpack said "Korn." I was reluctant to talk to this grubby-looking weirdo, and when I did, he talked about things I wasn't familiar with: Wicca, marijuana... blowjobs. But I still noticed his torn baby-blue backpack and the way he stared at me from across every class we had together.


Illustration by Thomas Pitilli

Three years of back-and-forth chasing ensued. He'd advance, I'd retreat. He'd date all my cousins, I'd type at him in all caps on AIM. Finally, in the spring of my senior year of high school, I relented.

I couldn't help it; I was in love. I always had been, really. He was my first real kiss, in his driveway, in the front seat of my Oldsmobile. We had been dating for about a month when his whole family decided to leave the house one afternoon for his little brother's baseball game. I sat on the kitchen counter while he heated a Domino's pizza in the microwave. It was hot. The windows were open. The sweat dripping down my back felt like bugs crawling all over me.

He sauntered up to me and kissed me. That was it. He led me to his bedroom, to his bed. Somehow I was stripped down to a black tank top, and he was completely naked. As he slid into me I moaned in pain. It felt like someone was ripping out my insides with their bare hands. But I begged him to keep going, to keep ripping into me, because the pain was as intense as my feelings for him.

When we were done, we lay there a long time in silence. His family came home soon after; we rushed to get clothes on, and walked out into the living room to face bright lights and accusations. I'm twenty-one now and I'm no longer with him, but he is constantly on my mind.

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FIRST TIMES
According to just about every pre-college advice manual, floorcest is a bad idea.
"So no, I didn't lose my virginity in the most traditional way."
"He looked like if Ian Somerhalder and Gerard Butler had somehow created a baby."

Commentarium (11 Comments)

Jan 26 10 - 2:09pm
LC

Fin!?! I looooooove Korn, too!

Jan 26 10 - 4:40pm
CE

This is clearly a case of "surprise sex."

Jan 26 10 - 7:55pm
JS

You should try to contact him, see if he still thinks about you too.

Jan 27 10 - 6:13pm
KT

RAM--- truth.

Jan 29 10 - 7:04pm
dwp

works better if you grease it

Feb 09 10 - 2:25am
AC

HOT

Feb 13 10 - 9:53pm
Ste

I liked this one

Mar 03 10 - 2:06am
ME

Oh but he doesn't think of me...and now I remember the pizza was from Godfather's, not Dominoes...

Mar 03 10 - 7:04pm
EL

Truth...I do think of you.

Mar 27 10 - 11:31pm
Love

well i`m pleased with your own story,ok. hook me up. i wanna really meet u. cheers

Jul 01 11 - 2:59pm
henrik2k

liked the story too.