My First Time

Female • 18 • Australia

I was on my equivalent of the traditional "schoolies" trip every Australian high-school graduate takes, in Hong Kong. It was a whole new city, and I felt out of place, out of my depth, but strangely excited — secretly, I was thinking this was my chance to truly try out the life of drugs, drinks, and hookups that I'd been restraining myself from during school. I still don't know if it was actually excitement or just pressure from the expectations of being in such an alive city. Either way, it suited my very pragmatic outlook on these things; sex was also just another hurdle to get over in my mind. There wasn't any emotional significance attached to it.

I'd had hookups before, but they were mostly just kissing. For some reason, my looks made my friends assume that I'd gone far, and I let them believe that, because it was simpler and kinder to my pride. But I kept getting curious about what it would feel like to have sex or get completely blind drunk. I'd never allowed myself to get more than tipsy ever before, mostly because I was afraid of how I would act or what secrets I would let out.

One night I and some of my friends from back in Australia decided to go explore the clubbing districts of Hong Kong. An endless stream of drinks resulted in me getting smashed. My last two friends left at two a.m., with one entrusting me to the care of two random people we'd met that night.

From here on, my memory gets a bit hazy, but at one of the bars we went to, we bumped into a group of European guys from the local university. This makes me want to slap myself, but I'm quite sure I started dancing with — no, on — one of them. He had Middle Eastern looks and a face that I've forgotten. We started making out drunkenly on the dance floor, then I dragged him into one of the club toilets.

I'm a happy drunk. I'm up for anything. So suddenly I was having sex with him, and it was going okay until one of my new friends started banging on the door because she was worried.

We left at six a.m. I ended up going home with the two random people who my friends had asked to take care of me. Thankfully, they turned out to be my age and completely nice.

To this date, I've never been so scared as the moment I woke up and realized I'd been too drunk to use a condom. We went to buy the morning-after pill immediately, but ultimately I may have been saved by the fact that my new friend had interrupted us before the guy had finished. I felt seriously ill. Meanwhile, the guy had entered his number on my phone and texted me continuously until I blocked him.

I still have conflicted feelings about my first time. On one hand, I'm glad the "hurdle" is over with, but I'm not glad that I was completely drunk, that it was in a toilet in a club, that it's something I will never tell the majority of my friends about because I'm ashamed — hell, that I can't even remember the guy's face. I still cringe looking back on it.

We're looking for stories about the first time you had sex. Email with 500-1000 words. (Don't worry, we won't print your name — but please do make sure to include your gender, where you were, and how old you were.) Submissions may be edited.
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Commentarium (12 Comments)

Feb 28 12 - 7:51am

I wouldn't be ashamed about that, I'm from England and here it's almost like a competition of who has the funniest/wildest sex stories, to have one from your first time is impressive! Sure it could have ended terribly, but it didn't, so just look back on it as a lot of fun! It sounds like it was!

Feb 28 12 - 8:58am

If he was as drunk as you were I'd say your first time antics make you a rapist. And errr, him too, if that even makes sense.

Mar 03 12 - 12:12am

Oh jesus shut up with the 'if everybody's drunk, somebody must've been raped' bullshit.

Feb 28 12 - 10:03am

Nice boobs.

Feb 28 12 - 4:37pm

Hah, it's like everyones first time. I was so nervous I drank a 6 pack of Zima and barfed after my boyfriend and I did it.

Feb 29 12 - 8:22pm

This is great. Just by the tone of it I know it was written by an Australian!

Mar 25 12 - 12:10am

I fucked my grandpa for my first time ansmd were still dating , but I'm 4 months pregnant and the bump is on my belly it's his child and I don't know wat to do

Apr 24 12 - 7:11am

uh, ur fucked your grandpa? that's pretty disguisted, dont you think so? now what ur family will say about it? u have to tell the truth.

Jun 27 12 - 6:51am

You fucked ur granpa how old are u and how did u start having sex did u require ur grandpa to fuck u?
I have a question when do u have sex usually about what age

Jun 28 12 - 12:50am

My grandpa and I are in love and I want his baby

Jul 10 12 - 4:47pm

Eww why.would you fuck your own grandpa that's slutty

Aug 04 12 - 4:13pm

That is really gross hes your grandfather.!!!