Weekend Getaway

After my sophomore year in college, the love of my life left to visit her family in the Dominican Republic, a period I decided was far too long for me to go without seeing her. This was the time for something big: she was the girl I’d fallen for at first sight and pursued for over a year before anything happened. After nearly two years, we still hadn’t quite made it to boyfriend-girlfriend.

I decided I’d fly down and book the nicest hotel I could afford. She would sneak away from her family and spend three perfect, idyllic days with me. It was to be an unforgettable affair. We would frolic naked and feed each other fresh fruit.

Impetuous and in love, I had much less trouble convincing myself than I did convincing her, but I did it. She’d tell her parents that she was spending the weekend with some girlfriends who were vacationing nearby and then sneak off to meet me.

I’d come 1,500 miles to miss her by five inches.

Things started to go wrong when her mother offered to drive her to the hotel. She said she was fine, and didn’t want her to go out of her way. Her mother insisted, she again refused, but her mother, like most mothers when they sense something’s up, was adamant.

At the hotel, she tried to say her goodbyes in the car, but her mother wanted to come inside and “meet these friends I’ve been hearing about." Flustered, my sort-of girlfriend struggled to come up with a believable reason for why that was impossible. Which, of course, made her mother insist.

I was waiting in the lobby, unaware and positively overcome with childlike excitement. The moment I spotted her I was sure there was nothing else in the world. It took most of my available mental capacity not to run over and tackle her.

I forced myself to walk over coolly, and luckily so; my feigned nonchalance bought me just enough time to notice the expression of terrified urgency on her face. She was furtively waving me away, trying to pretend that her friends were a no-show.

It went way too fast. I course-corrected, confused, and pretended not to know who she was. I brushed by her, my shoulder inches from hers, teasing but never touching. Then I sat in the lobby and watched as she pretended to be confused and annoyed, speaking to her mom. Then I watched her leave. I’d come 1,500 miles to miss her by five inches.

I spent the rest of the weekend sitting alone in my hotel room. She called eventually and apologized profusely. Despite everything, I forgave her.

That trip was neither the first nor the last in a long line of bad decisions inspired by my love for this girl. Four years and numerous grand gestures later, I’d like to tell you how it ended, but I’m still working on that. — Jude Gibson

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Commentarium (28 Comments)

Feb 13 11 - 2:01am
JL

Best feature Nerve has done in a long, long time.

Feb 13 11 - 2:10am
Z

Agreed. Completely agreed. This was beautiful.

Feb 13 11 - 4:41am
notfromaroundhere

Agreed. Absolutely.

Feb 13 11 - 4:53am
CodeNameDuchess

Loved this. The Great Cookie Offering hit so close to home.

Feb 13 11 - 11:41pm
eo

nice. vintage Nerve....really liked this one

Feb 13 11 - 3:31am
Lawrence

Amazing.

Feb 13 11 - 5:27am
oh man

Weekend Getaway hit me right in the kisser. ALl of these were completely raw and really effectively written.

Feb 13 11 - 6:56am
agreed

love this article, i can relate to the cookie story.

Feb 13 11 - 12:27pm
katydidnt

So, so good, all of them.

Feb 13 11 - 2:07pm
Eman

This was very very well done.

Feb 13 11 - 4:21pm
lalaland

i was blown away. great job on each story. this feature reminded me of nerve from about ten years ago, when the site had big literary aspirations.

Feb 15 11 - 12:32pm
nobody's geek

Agreed.

Feb 13 11 - 4:30pm
nice

nerve's first story ever about a fraternity. of course, it's a gay one. still, classic. love it.

Feb 14 11 - 6:10pm
Freddy

I like the implication from the picture that it's Princeton.

Jul 10 12 - 5:20pm
andrea

except does Princeton have frats?

Feb 13 11 - 5:16pm
Elle

I too have made cookies in my unused kitchen for sexual encounters that I wanted to validate. (God knows why I would this, an urge far surpassing my feminism) Will never bake a cookie again.

Feb 13 11 - 6:49pm
lalaland

I second what anna Dremousis said. Or hell, bake cookies for yourself, bake for the elderly, or bake for some NYC firefighters. Just don't bake with expectations. Sometimes you have to learn the hard way how to "respect yourself enough" to leave people alone when that's what they want. I don't think that lesson takes anything away from the lovely gesture, though.

Feb 13 11 - 5:44pm
anna Dremousis

I predict Litsa will bake cookies when she falls in love again. Food is love. It takes love to generate the cookie baking gene.

Feb 13 11 - 9:53pm
FeeGreen

Dear god that was the best thing I've read here in a long, long time. Great writers, great subject, and a relief from all the saccharine sweet v-day crap all over the place.

Feb 14 11 - 9:33am
im that guy.... :(

Beautiful story. I'm not looking for relationships, and people I get involved with know this - I have a lot of those amazing wurl wind not date dates that last all weekend with people I genuinely have feelings for - that said, still not ready to be someones serious someone. I hope I'n not hurting people :( xoxoxoxoxo.

Feb 14 11 - 11:41am
Wow

Awesome feature.

I too made the mistake of letter a girl read a journal that was made up almost exclusively of my pining for her as she broke up and got back together with me several times.

Extremely bad move. I feel sick even thinking about it. But she insisted once she discovered it existed.

Feb 14 11 - 12:18pm
Spitzy

Any story that begins with "I baked chocolate chip cookies for a guy I’d recently started sleeping with" and ends with "I don’t mind swallowing" is almost guaranteed to be one of the greatest things ever written.

Feb 14 11 - 1:15pm
MDM

Been there, done that. Why do we think our long dormant baking genes will get us anything but frustration? Off to bake for a more appreciative contingent - who subscribe to the notion "burned cookies are better than no cookies." LOVE that you share all the subtle nuances of loves, lost, found and in between.

Feb 14 11 - 6:26pm
MW

The Amelie girl was amazing and perfect. Nice to know there are women like that out there.

Feb 15 11 - 12:45am
Reinelle Apodaca

I baked these INCREDIBLE Martha Stewart Lime sugar cookie concoctions and mailed them to Seattle... Later, I was informed I had too many "things". I'm a girl!!! and "things" are just that. I don't need them. People are more important to me, which is why I baked the cookies in the first place!!! Sheesh! A friend of mine who knew him said that in another lifetime he was a servant of mine and would never feel like he deserved me! Freaky!!! Someday someone will appreciate my Martha Stewart cookies (I sometimes do giant bears with individualized sweaters)....Someday.

Feb 15 11 - 6:13pm
FR

This was so incredible, best valentines day cure ever!

Feb 17 11 - 5:26am
SH

My favourite is definitely the Weekend Getaway.

Bittersweet, sad, poignant and yet, is the only story of the series where there is a sliver of hope at the ending that things might work out.

Great set of stories.

Apr 13 11 - 4:10pm
Kassie

Stands back from the keyboard in amazement! Tahnks!