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I called his close friend, Jack, who had also been at the party, for the pertinent information and gave him a truncated version of events. He lived nearby and rushed to my place while the paramedics reassembled Keith in his dog costume, thoughtfully omitting his whiskers and ears. They lifted Keith onto their gurney and wheeled him to the ambulance, evoking curiosity from my neighbors, who had woken to sirens this morning. Jack offered me a ride and we followed Keith and the ambulance to the hospital several miles away.
“I hope he’ll be okay,” I said. “One minute he was fine and the next he was convulsing. It came on out of nowhere."
Jack was equally concerned, but unsurprised. “He shouldn’t have been drinking last night. He knows this can happen."
“Keith only had two or three beers. What’s that got to do with anything?”
“Sometimes it can trigger his symptoms. You know he has epilepsy, right?”
I’d had no idea, and wouldn’t have just watched him drink if I’d known. “No, why didn’t he tell me?”
As we drove, Jack explained Keith’s symptoms and that he was self-conscious about revealing them, particularly to women, because there were so many myths surrounding epilepsy. Jack was protective of his friend’s vulnerability.
Unbeknown to me, Jack had also called Keith’s mom, Mrs. Crutcher, before departing for my home. I realized this when she ran up to Jack and me as we entered the emergency room on the heels of Keith and the paramedics.
It was 6:00 a.m. Sunday and she'd just seen paramedics wheel her son, dressed as a dog from the neck down, into an exam room.
Mrs. Crutcher put her hand on my shoulder. "What were you doing when Keith had his seizure?" Her voice was fraught with motherly concern. A retired Catholic school principal, perhaps she needed to believe that my hair, a rabid post-coital mess, was merely a fashion choice and not evidence.
I bit my cheeks.
"Were you having breakfast?" she asked, hopefully. I couldn't answer. I knew if I opened my mouth, I’d laugh until I choked.
"Yes, Mrs. Crutcher. They were having breakfast," Jack reassured her, in an act of heroism for all concerned.
Then, in the-I’m-glad-you’re-alive-now-I’m-going-to-kill-you gear-shift endemic to parenthood, she asked, “Why was Keith drinking last night? Jack said he drank at the party. Keith knows alcohol can give him a seizure.” With that, she headed toward Keith’s exam room, like a TV detective intent on getting to the bottom of things.
Jack and I looked at each other. “Oh, man,” he said.
“Yeah,” I sighed and we trod toward the waiting room.
The next afternoon, Keith called and asked me to dinner the next Saturday. He was at work, so we kept things brief and neither of us mentioned the incident directly. When he picked me up Saturday night, our conversation was customarily goofy and remarkably free of awkwardness. Because I’d been twenty-four when CFIDS hit and had spent the first four months in a wheelchair, undergoing copious tests and told (erroneously) that might die soon, hospitals didn’t rattle me. I felt bad Keith had epilepsy, but didn’t treat him differently than I had at the Halloween party. If nothing else, I found him cuter in his Levi’s and button-down shirt.







Commentarium (22 Comments)
I liked it. Good, funny reading.
awesome.
"And yet, there’s inevitably a moment when you tell someone the facts in an even-keeled way and — kapow! — they freak the fuck out and you end up having to assuage their fractured sense of mortality."
Oh man, that does not just apply to diseases. Explaining to someone just how fucked up your family was, especially when it didn't seem all that fucked up as you were growing up in it, is always just a barrel of laughs.
Tell me about it. The more you grow and distance yourself from your tortured upbringing, the more difficult is to revisit it.
I dated a guy with epilepsy (who happened to be a douche for reasons completely unrelated to his illness). He would have seizures all the time and he was also an alcoholic. When I told him (several times) that the drinking only exacerbates the seizures, he dismissed this idea.
Great story.
"But if I believed in demonic possession and such, I wouldn’t have been having unwed Halloween sex with a semi-drunk college pal in the first place."
So, explain Bristol Palin's pregnancy. (Although, come to think of it, Levi Johnston wasn't Bristol's "college pal," he was a high school drop-out.)
Well-written and enjoyable, as always. Litsa is my favorite Nerve essayist; great tone and development.
Litsa scores again & knocks it out of the ball park with another touching & humorous essay about dating & sex!!! Totally agree with Christina M.---Litsa is my favorite Nerve essayist & I look forward to reading more of her essays, as well as her novel. Litsa has the ability to write the way the rest of us would like to, but her talent is far beyond what most of us possess. Great writing, as usual, Litsa!
Sup Litsa's mom, nice to see you here.
^ loved that
A really great story, the persepective really captures the feel of these situations.
I was hoping for a picture of the guy in the dog suit; o well. Good story anyhow.
Great story, Im learning to walk again and can certainly identify with this.
Best of luck to you, AA. Wishing you great things.
This is the kind of article that makes me come to Nerve.
Yeah, nicely written champ. Inappropriate laughter is the best though. At school we had a teacher who entertained a bunch of us. So he comes out with this story that his brother was eaten by a shark. Unfortunately, in the slide scale of mortality humour, there isn't much that is funnier than exiting the world as fish food. Someone went off and the room dissolved into howling, tear-filled laughter. Unfortunately I don't think teach was in the moment though.
I was with someone once who had a seizure, but who had no prior history of one. Woke up beside him one day and he was seizing. It was pretty terrifying, so really related to this story, thanks!
Loved it. As someone with an illness that is currently incurable, it's empowering and comforting to know that I'm not alone, and it's not the end of the world.
Jen, I love your phrase "currently incurable" as it's a great reminder that a cure is still possible. Wishing you the best.
Litsa, hilarious as usual. I would never believe this if I knew it wasn't true! Being a Catholic girl, this is my favorite line: "Yes, Mrs. Crutcher. They were having breakfast," Jack reassured her, in an act of heroism for all concerned." Happy Memorial Day.
Son of a gun, this is so helfpul!