fall out boy

Just when you thought emo was dead, Fall Out Boy singer/guitarist Patrick Stump published a 1,564-word blog entry — unfortunately, not on LiveJournal — titled "We Liked You Better Fat: Confessions of a Pariah." The (former?) rock star, whose recent solo album flopped, laments that "I'm a 27[-year-old] has-been," destined for "financially unsuccessful obscurity."

It's a time-consuming, painfully introspective read. Here are the most self-loathing-heavy passages:

1. "The reality is that for a certain number of people, all I’ve ever done, all I ever will do, and all I ever had the capacity to do worth a damn was a record I began recording when I was 18 years old."

2. "Fall Out Boy's last album ... was our most critically panned and audiences openly hated it (it was also our poorest selling major label album even if one adjusts for the changing music economy). ... The barrage of 'We liked you better fat,' the threatening letters to my home, the kids that paid for tickets to my solo shows to tell me how much I sucked without Fall Out Boy, that wasn't something I suppose I was or ever will be ready for."

3. "Add into that the economic risk I had taken [In short: I blew my nest egg on that record and touring in support of it] the hate really crushed me."

4. "I still have access to enough money to live on in order to avoid bankruptcy for at least a few years as long as I stick to my budget... Still, there’s no amount of money in the world that makes one feel content with having no self respect. There’s no amount of money that makes you feel better when people think of you as a joke or a hack or a failure or ugly or stupid or morally empty."

5. "If anyone's going to appreciate the work I’m making, it won’t be until long after I'm done doing it. ... It's as though I’ve received some big cosmic sign that says I should disappear."

6. "I hate feeling like the awkward adult husk of a discarded once-cute child actor. I'm debating going back to school and learning a proper trade."

7. "I've managed to cobble together some work…I’ve been moonlighting as a professional songwriter/producer for hire and I’ve even been doing a bit of acting here and there. I have no interest (and evidently that sentiment is reciprocated) in performing music publicly any time soon..."

8. "It's tempting to say I won’t ever play/tour/record again, but I think that's probably just pent up poor-me emotional pessimism talking (I suppose can be excused of that though right? I am the guy from That Emo Band after all)."

9. "[T]here will still be 10-20 percent of the audience there to tell me how shitty whatever it is I’m doing is and how much better the thing I used to do was."

10. "I've been watching a lot of Downton Abbey and I've finally caught up on the Office."

Commentarium (5 Comments)

Feb 29 12 - 11:55pm

lets be honest here, how many front men from relatively successful band have actually succeeded in doing a solo album, and if your last album with the band you were in was a flop (i'm just saying here) maybe a solo career isn't the best choice. What it sounds like to me, by the end of fall out boy he was already a has been. As for his solo album, needless to say it was boring. Every song was just never ending loops that any teenager could do with a mac and a moderate understanding of music. another thing is every musician takes crap from his/hers fans if you can't stand criticism maybe you shouldn't be in music. and finally if he started recording when he was eighteen and even had mild success until 27 he's pretty lucky. bands come and go, not many performers can be like the stones. eight years of performing music for a job, that's pretty damn good now days. he just needs to suck it up and stop being a pussy.

Mar 01 12 - 3:42pm

I second your thought - Patrick needs to stop being a whiney little twat. Some of us have real jobs with real problems.

Mar 01 12 - 2:39am
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Patrick is obviously way too up in his head about this. I don't mean this in a negative way, but I didn't even realize that the last album didn't sell and didn't realize he had done a solo album. There are a lot of people I am sure like me that just think about Fall Out Boy as these guys that had some pretty good songs. Relax. Take your time and figure out what you liked about playing/writing in the first place.

The only reason you have the hate is because of the big success. No one follows around some unknown musician to tell them they suck. Music is a ridiculously hard business to be in today. So just get some perspective on how cool the success ride was and then focus on entertaining yourself. I am sure that is what brought the success originally.

If it ends up that you never reach that level of success again, then you will have a great story to tell your kids and you had a blast doing something most people never get a chance to. I wish him luck.

Mar 01 12 - 3:26am

I was a HUGE Fall Out Boy fan until their last album. It did in fact suck. That's coming from someone who went to their show every time they were in town and even stayed around to met them. Patricks solo album just plain wasn't good. It was boring, it was awkward, it was in a style that we don't really listen to anymore. But I knew when he produced The Cabs first album that his own was gonna be a bit off. The Cabs album was good, but certain things were in the wrong place or came too soon, or sounded a bit off. Patrick just needs a little refining. But if he's taking all this so hard, maybe he should just get a degree, work a job, and then every once in a while pick up a guitar and tell his future kids about when he was in a huge selling band

Mar 01 12 - 1:34pm

He's becoming "obscure" because he's moved out of the demographic that will buy anything they hear on the radio. They're old enough now to know better; his music is audio-vomit.