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The Lisa Diaries by Lisa Carver  
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Introduction


The Jellyfish Tour
February 19, 1999 ~ Boston


I've been on tour with (my band) Suckdog. The clichés about being on the road are so true! It's a floaty dreamworld, completely void of morals. No one can reach you. No one can call you on the telephone. No one can need you. You drift in and out of people's nights like a jellyfish. Even people who know you turn into strangers when they watch you on stage. It's like they're meeting you for the first time, and everything between you is changed for that night. Dave was at the Boston show. He said I'm beautiful! Lyle never once complimented my appearance. Except one time he said I had nice ears (he said ears were important to him). I like the way Dave mixes up all these patterns and textures that shouldn't look good, and he makes them look good. I think it's his posture. He lounges and he says "baby." He is sly but somehow absurd, like a cross between a snake and a puppy. During the post-show frenzy of packing costumes and props and signing autographs and finding places to sleep, Dave sucked on olives and slouched until he almost disappeared, and he said to me, "Come sleep at my house. I have a swimming pool."
     "Really?"
     "No, that's right — I don't have a pool. I have cats. I forgot."
     It turns out they weren't even his cats — they belonged to his roommate. I didn't expect anything to happen because we'd innocently slept together twice before. In bed he said, "We're friends." I said, "Yes." Then he pulled me on top of him and said he was going to sleep, and he didn't go to sleep at all. I guess we hadn't counted on his radio being tuned to The Touch. The Touch is the kind of soul-lite station you turn on to hear Luther Vandross murmur, "Oh baby, I was wrong. You're not a girl, you're a woman, and I'm gonna take you out on the lake and right there in the bottom of my canoe I'm gonna love you like a woman, like a woman, in this crazy, crazy world." You listen to that, you're helpless.
     It felt strange to have someone other than Lyle touching me. Dave really likes this stuff. I do too! But you forget what that's like when you've been with someone so twisted up about it. I also felt terribly guilty because he has this new sort-of girlfriend, and I haven't been part of a cheat since I was a teenager. But when The Touch has you in its velvety hold, you can hardly say no.






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